I found something interesting...

I am surely speechless. To be frank, i have stopped my blog for you. It takes me weeks and months... to make this simple decision. It seems so simple when you are not in it. Try put on my shoe, and think about it. I have no idea what i did. But i hope i won't regret my choice. Life... is really tiring.

Wealth Equation ^^

My mind, besides spending all my energy on preparing my exam, something also came to my mind. Why we study so hard for? Knowledge? Why want knowledge? To know all? Or? to get a good job, having a good pay? Pay? money??? So, why want money? Life!!! No money, no life. Is this the real fact? LOL! Perhaps, what we are all chasing, is wrong. Wealth. Bill Gates is the most wealthy person? I don't think so. I can too be the most wealthy person. How? So, you think i aim to earn more money than Bill Gates? Nope. I just need to learn to be fulfilled by what i have now. It came to me...

The wealth Equation

Wealth = Happiness/Value of $ needed to be fulfill*Highest value of Donation*Value of $ currently own

Since happiness cannot be measured, it will be replaced by a constant, 1. Fill in the Value that you can fill in. However, human tend to deceive themselves. So, no one gets to have the correct answer for themselves. Perhaps you think u can be truthful to yourself. Just do it. By the way, the value of $ needed to feel fulfilled means that the total value of money you needed, which includes houses, cars, phones, computers, foods, and all materials that can measured by $.

Assume i wanted 1 million dollars and the highest value of donation is 100 dollars and currently i have 100 thousand dollars. My wealth is only 10 dollars. LOL!

Assume Bill Gates wanted 1 billion dollars and he is willing to donate all his money he own now and assume he currently have 100million (of which he have billions in reality), he equation turns out to be 10millions! See how wealthy is him? If he is a scrooge, not willing to donate, the wealth will reduce.

What important! is the value u needed. The lower the value, the wealthier you will be. Perhaps, when money does not exist, everyone can be wealthy. ^^

The Prince will be back!

Prince Peacecraft is now going to hide himself from internet. That also mean that i'll be stopped from playing games. LOL! Hope that i will success in my quest for ACCA achievement. This coming December exam, i must emerge victorious! WoohoO! My fellow ACCA quest Comrades, wish everyone ALL THE BEST! May all of us fight the war with honour and respect, try our very BEST! !!! Good Bye! Temporarily... ^^

Missing once again...

What is missing? Who is missing?
LOL! This question, depends on how you look at it. Me? Or is it something that belongs to me? Or is it just something that i wanted and i never get it? LOL! Either way, there is no solution for this question now. But, one thing for sure, i am gonna be missing for some time.
Lately, i have been moody. The phrase " I hate my life!" is coming to my head so often now. Of which, i don't like it. "Hang on!" Another phrase that i hated, also came afloat. "FIGHT!" Again... this is what i am running from that makes me so weak to even try to think about it. So tired that i really wanna find myself a coffin and sleep in it for a year or so to avoid facing problems temporarily. Coward! This is what i called myself. Because i never face them. When i face them, i run. What do u call someone who keep running from problems? Coward! I don't like being called one. Stand and fight! But that is not what i do all the time. I run... Run away from problems... pitiful weakling. Dreams of success is so fragile that it may break any seconds. Yesterday in class while lecturer was teaching, i day dream again. Where was it? I feel like touching my dream car, Lamborghini Gallardo. The engine sound roaring so fine and strong that... Forget it...

The Time Chronosphere

The clock hanging on the wall,
is just a device telling hours, minutes and seconds.
Ever notice a waterfall,
water came crashing but time passing cannot be noticed.
If time can go backwards,
a waterfall will still seems to be the same.
Something that had happened,
will stay the same no matter how you try to mend.
Why do people wants a time machine,
to go back in time and attempt to change the past?
Why do people want to go back in time,
to face the same mistakes made and sadness all over again?
What meant to happen happens,
as time only move forwards and never goes backwards.
So why reminisce our failure and regrets,
while we still can change our future by our action now?
But remember to look back,
as it is what that makes us now.
It is our past mistakes,
that makes us stronger and live better.
Time Chronosphere?
It is just something people use to dream,
to run away from problems they are facing now!

What happen next?

Updates...
What's all this about. Firstly... exam. Few days ago, i was like... worried what is the outcome of the exam. In the end... I pass all 3 papers 1 go. Happy? =.= Of course i am. But happiness can be so short... so very short... 5 minutes? 10 minutes? =.=''' people celebrate whole day... perhaps whole week... me? I feel nothing. Wonder why? I just remember my promise to God. I swore to be a half vegetarian if i pass 3 papers 1 go this time. This is what i get. Thank God...
Of course, this is also my sacrifice. Something lost, something gain. Still remember the time without computers? 1 month some more? The misery... But human... When they achieve something, they tend to forget. Lately, i keep reminding myself. You come this far, because of how much u sacrifice. This is what you earn. If you don't keep it up, you will FAIL again. Pressure? hmm... somehow, i feel pressure. Who give me this pressure? Myself. LOL! Am i simply stupid or what?
Everyone... sees me... "CONGRATULATION! U r so LUCKY, so PRO pass 3 papers 1 go."
=.=''' Sianz... Of course, i can just say... thank you. Some of them, even think i am proud. They sees me as an enemy or what? Anyway, i don't care. I don't care. I am just happy being ME! Haih... if i really don't care, i won't feel such misery. Why do i have to change, to be so sensitive?
Shouting out LOUD~ I MISS THE OLD ME! I MISS MYSELF!
Who don't give a damn of what the damn hell is happening around me.
Who don't give a damn how others think of me.
Who is so damn self centered.
Who only wanted to win so badly that is willing to sacrifice nearly everything to achieve my goal.
Yes... Me, My Own, Myself!!!
But... fact is... i m not me anymore. =.=''' No longer me... because... i care. i care how others look at me.
Back to the exam result. Getting such result, i should be over the sky. But, i feel jz the opposite. I m in deeper pressure. What will be my next step? What should i do next? Life... is full of choices.
LoL. 1 super funny thing is that, i feel sad. even cried for no reason. Suppose there is a reason. Only i don't seems to know it. Or it is just that, i can release some steam? hmm...
What Happen Next?

Nice song... ><

Rough Sea

Life is like a boat.
When we were young, we are floating on the river. It is easy for us to find a place to stop for some rest and repair.
Soon, we got fed up with the small place to play. So, we leave the river and went into a bigger river. On the way, there were jetties and land nearby. The current is slow and steady. Some, may faces fast current due to the rain, some may just stay the same.
The older we get, the bigger boat we have. We starts to wonder what is out there. So, we go further. Out into the straits. Straits are protected by the strong winds. We find a place to land when we get tired. But none the less, the journey doesn't end.
Now we were growing older. The boat have become a little bigger. So grow, some don't. This will need to depend on the users, us. How much we learn and how much stronger we made ourselves.
Time for the open sea. When we were out in the open sea, there is no place to rest. No jetties nearby. What to do? Hang in there... Some, may abandon boat. Some, may just cling on. Some, didn't go far, just stay near the starting point to keep safe. But none the less, everyone have to learn so we can survive the open sea. Waves... thunderstorm... Those who learn and grow their ships, will be stronger therefore staying alive is more easy. But a small boat, can also survive. As long as you try. It maybe hard, but it is possible. After the storm, is the calm sea. Then it is time to self repair your tiny boat and look for a harbor or Jetty to stop for improvement.
Life goes on...
Until your boat is old, rusty. Then it is time... But i believe, for such a long time. Destination, your dream, can however be achieved. Even if you didn't, as long as you tried, it is enough a memory to reminisce...

Untitled... Because i have no idea what to name it yet.

Sometimes what you see,
you think it's everything.
Sometimes what you see,
may not be anything.
When and where will facts and truth come true?

When you believe,
facts and truth exist.
When people believe,
everything subsist.

Fact is Fact,
but none is real.
Because we believe,
they exist.

Discover this,
found out that,
scientists discover the facts.
If none believe,
facts never become facts.

Man can't fly,
but man believe.
So man flies,
dreams no longer are dreams!

If life...

If I wish upon a star,
will my dreams come true?
If i wish and pray with hope,
will i be disappointed with what to come?

What if i never leave so far,
i would never lose so much.
But since what done is done,
there is nothing i can do to undone.

Maybe it is fate or destiny,
so just let it be and follow the way.
It is your choice,
it is what you choose,
so don't blame others for letting you loose.

If i ever get to choose again,
i would never choose this way,
to pick a road i never enjoy.
If so many if existed,
there will be neither regret nor wrong...

Update!!!

WOOOO!!! Exam is finally over and... I get my Laptop back! YIPPEEE! == Actually i don't know how should i feel now. Worried for my result...
Anyway, Updates... May was DEVASTATING! It is like the worst time of my life... STRESS! Days with computer is really... MY GOD. NUTS! DRIVE ME NUTS! LOL!
Erm... just to tell everyone. I AM BACK! LOL! Wonder if this is real... i don't think i am really BACK yet. Since... 1 month time without comp... some how, some what use to it. So, may not be online so often. DAILY ROUTINE LIFE WITHOUT COMP!!!!

!MIA!

~MIA~
This word may be Malaysia Institute of Account.
This word may be Missing In Action.
LOL! Since both of it kind of relates to me... Lets make it clear. Hopefully, i can become a member of MIA when i turn 23...
Besides, I am going MIA starting May because... my line will be disconnected for 1 month. LOL! I suppose this is one best way to stop me from online and try to spend more time with my dear account books.=.= Yuck~ wanna vomit blood edi... blah blah blah... Why i take account anyway... duh~
Anyway, i won't regret my choice although i hate it. Try my best~ wish me lucK!

Tired Mind..

I am tired of hanging on... my soul is tired of hanging on...
Always have i tried to hang on with the support of everyone around me... i feel happy, because there are people that care...
Always have i hang on to achieve what other support me to do... i feel of some worth of myself...
But i am tired... If there is no more voices calling out to me, to hang in there... can i even stand 1 more seconds on my own out there?

Off Track

Have you ever feel tired of keeping on running in the track, aiming to achieve your goal?
Life is like a battle. This world is full of competitions. Anything can be taken to be competed against.
Recently, i was... competing against myself? Have you ever feel that, when you had always been able to finish the race to the end reaching the goal, when everything was running smoothly... you have always been winning... Even when you feel tired, there is always a voice there, telling you to hang in there... You will always be trying your best to reach it. Even if it tires you out, you will feel that it is worth it and every time, you get what you want from the effort you put in.
Feel this before?
I suppose everyone does... just that, sometimes, some don't. No matter how much hard work they put in, they get nothing. Pessimism. But i cannot deny this truth. Some people are just born to be this bad luck. It is the heart that keep them going, living on happily.
Have you ever feel that you got kicked out off track... where you always have been running smoothly and was like always the champ but end up losing everything in a game?
I feel so now. This feeling is all over... No matter how much i hate to compete, i still continue to run... why? Why did i continue even if i hate it? WHY? Because, i hate losing. Even in something that i dislike, i will still want to own it. Because i don't like to lose to others. This is a very bad personality that i own of which i really hate.
But, seems like i had lost it when i got dropped out of the race. Giving up? I think so... But i have been telling myself not to give up no matter what i do. Yes. Good Spirit. When you are going after something you don't have interest in, there is no energy that let you hang on. Just like you love fish but you are hunting for crab, is there any energy for you to continue to hunt for crab when none of it came? =.=''' C'mon...
I seems to be suffering from deep pressure lately. But no... that is not true. It is just a small conflict within me. When i finally know of my interest and i am hanging on to something that i have no interest in but keep hanging on just to show that i never give up, just to show that i am no weakling. BullShit! Rubbish! What thrash is this!
Every degree worth big buck. But if there is no LUCK, you will be just a human, working for small company, earning a small salary, just like everyone else do. What's the difference anyway? We all are humans. No matter what degree you take, if that is what you like, you will put your effort in it. Success. Is there anything to measure success? Is it measured with kilogram? Meters?? Give me a break. Luck... talking about luck... even someone who never study can earn big buck... Degree, Master, PhD... Bullshit~ It is just merely a piece of paper. Certificates... it is worthless. What worth most? Money~~~ Even if you carry a PhD in your hand and stay unemployed... You still go and EAT GRASS. Rubbish. Why do people nowadays treat this papers as gold... my god...
knowledge... this is what it counts. NOT THE PAPER! Some certs are even fake... =.=''' Fake certs... that person maybe a PhD, but without the knowledge of a PhD, still a rubbish.
But who even cares... It is still the status of life that everyone care. MONEY~ Who cares what PhD you are, how much you can make? This is the real question.
This is a very realistic world. Even i feel sick of it. Money...
money...
sick of it...

Cannot handle it... =.=

Ever since i start on with the rules... i was able to only hang on with monday to friday. Saturday and sunday... LOL! Was like out of the topic. Firstly, Saturday, i go and play and was like so tired that i need to sleep more on sunday of which i said i need to wake up on 7 of which i woke up at 8 due to my parents waking me up for breakfast. =.=''' first penalty for not waking up at 7. 2nd penalty for not going to jog or basketball. Then, after breakfast, when i reached home, i go to sleep again. =.=''' 3rd penalty for not studying a.k.a. doing revision when i reached home. 4th, i did study for awhile and stopped for some rest again soon. See, 4th... and now... 5th... of which i on the computer. So, just a Sunday, i got 5 penalty. =.=''' So, this means... i think i need to change a bit on the weekends part.
LOL! Give myself more time to rest. Wahahaha! Saturday and Sunday for resting!!! WOOH!!!! YEAH!!!! Wahahaha! among 7 days a week, 2 days for rest, should be ok what... LOL! Of course, the sleep time cannot be changed. So...
Just increase 1 more day for rest. LOL! ^^ However, Must continue the hard work! Because, the major rule cannot be change unless permitted by a simple majority of 4/5 of Mr.Z. LOL!
=.=''' Wonder how long can i stand this insanity...
Anyway, there is no way back. Only can move ahead. MUST PASS AND EARN MY PRIZE!

Determination

Since yesterday, 16th February 2009, after i saw my result, i collapse. Why? Simple. Because i failed all my papers i attempted. How can this happen? Reason is simple too. I didn't put in much effort to study. It is purely my own fault that they, The Examiners have the opportunity to fail me. My fault.
What can i do to make up to myself now?
What can i do? I was crying in my pillow yesterday. I can't sleep. I know, fact is a fact, nothing can change. I failed all my papers. I disappoint my parents, i disappoint my lecturer, i disappoint myself... what a shame... So what? It is the past. Can you go back in time and change it? NO! So why brooding over the past and stay down crying? Can cry help you pass? NO! So, after having the whole day of emo yesterday, today... i give myself a promise. I cannot change the past, but I CAN DECIDE MY FUTURE! So, today, i made a promise. Tonight, i will tell my parents about my failure. I will give myself restrictions. What type of restriction? Simple.
I will be penalize RM1 for every once i break the rule.

3 simple rules(weekdays)
1. I must wake up for breakfast every morning at 7 and start revision on 8am.
2. I cannot touch the TV, Computer until 10pm and must go to bed before 1230am.
3. I must spend at least 4 hours on the 3 subjects everyday.
3 simple rules(weekends)
1. Saturday is the only day for rest and do whatever i want but must sleep before 12am.
2. I must wake up 7am on Sunday and go play basketball or jog unless it rains.
3. I must do revision when i reach home and only allowed to touch the computer until 10pm and must go to bed before 1230am.
1 major rule
This June i will take 3 papers and must pass without failing one paper. Fail one, i will suspend myself from the computer and TV for 10 years.

Besides, i cut my hair bald to remind myself about what i do. My mistake, my fault... my stupid fault... my fault... There is no turning back now. I cannot forgive myself for failing this 2 papers either.
These rules will take effect starting 18th February 2009. This may seems cruel... but no pain no gain. This is real. My friends all at least pass 1 paper while i fail all. Such a disgrace...
End here. Anyone who visit and know of my rules, if you see me breaking any of these rules, please tell me too. Anyone who see this may penalize me if i break any of the rules above.
I am gonna print it out and stick it on the wall so every family members can see and keep an eye on me.

I just Realised that i still love BASKETBALL! XD

Woohoo! Yippee! It was just yesterday, 14th Feb, so called Valentine's day, i was dated. @@ Opps. Wrong wording. Ban Leong asked me to join his "Man Party" of which i denied and go for a basketball game with The Sim brothers.
I never touch the ball since i start studying in FTMS. I suppose that was like 2 or 3 years ago?? I do know that once in a blue moon, i will go play basketball with ban leong. But, it is really really rare for me to go play basketball ever since i started on my accounting course. That should be my fault for not going on Sunday morning, of which i usually do years ago. I have always been waiting for them to ask me to go for a basketball game. But none came. Anyway, never mind. They are busy too.
14th Feb, i finally get my chance! Woo! The Sim brother asked me to go play. So, i followed. 6pm, we went to the stadium. We start of warming up a little and... i totally lost my touch... =.=''' 10 shoots, 10 misses. LOL! What a disgrace. I don't even look like i am a basketball player before... 2 years didn't touch the ball, can cause so much??? Impossible!
So, after some warming up... so called... we started off with 3v3. Erm... i was like and extra. I was affraid of the ball. =.=''' My God... Then... when more of them come... we play full court. That, is when i finally earn my grasp of the ball back. Finally get the feel back. LOL! Kai, the Sarawak representative in basketball will always try to pass me the ball and ask me to go... too bad i always disappoint him. Then, i keep on telling myself to be more daring. So, the next one he passes to me... i was on the go. I dash to the opponent's side and attempted my first "dunk"... someone came up in front and blocked, then, i was scared to head on and knock him, so i fall backward. Injured! LOL! I sprain my ankle... But after the injury... i feel more and more into the game. LOL!!! That is when i start to do what i like to do most, run and go for a score without any stop. Anyway, since i got my feet injured... i just played another 2 game and stopped and be an audience. LOL! They are all so pro... haih~ i feel so petite playing with them. Total score for the 3 games... out of all, 5 attempts, 4 went in. Woohoo! Not bad result right? haha...Wonder why i was affraid at first... LOL! Although all are close range shoots... Anyway, in a game, every score is important. Haha!
I really love basketball. I still love basketball. I am gonna join them again the next week. Sure i will. LOL! Despite the injury, i feel that it is worth it. I get my basketball spirit back. haha!

I don't want to change!

It was just funny for me... when people ask me... why are you still using the same hand phone, using the same online game name, having the same bluetooth name? Why must i change? I don't want to change.
My mum did ask me do i want a Nokia N95 for my birthday present. But i rejected. I don't know why. I don't want to change my phone. =.=''' I am sure that all of you will say i am an idiot. N95 wor!!! Super phone compared to the Nokia 6630 i am using now... Actually, this phone was with me for years. I suppose it had followed me for more than 2 years. Besides, i earn it with my own part time salaries and saving. That time, it cost me RM1k... But that is not the point, it just, followed me for so long that i don't feel like changing it. I never want to change it. NEVER! Don't ask me why. Because i don't know why too.
Why still Tallgeese3? A lot of people was asking me this... No why, because i just like it. I don't want to change too. Tallgeese3... a gundam i like since my early secondary school. Even until now, i still keep it. Tallgeese is still with me. Just that it is now in a box... Even if it died and need to be dumped, it still stays in my heart...
I was unable to sleep last night. I don't know why. Many things come into my mind. If i am given a set of amount of date of survival, meaning, after some times later, i will die, what will i do? This question is not a tough question for me. I don't even have to think long to give an answer to this. Pessimistic! Death is far from me. Why think death? But anyway, my answer to this question was so clear that my mind was blanked... Guessing what is my answer? That's a secret. ^^
The whole night was spend meaninglessly. I didn't sleep... then in the end, i decide to wake up and do some revision rather than wasting time on the bed not sleeping...
Pessimistic doesn't fit me. I am a cheerful one. So, this won't bother me long. ^^ hehe...

I really love this song!

This song had win my heart since the day i first listen to it. It was so many years ago. That time i was not so into listening to music. But i still can remember this song. Lately i miss it really much. So i took my time, looking for it in sogou, haoting, baidu. Shockingly, i can't find it. I was about to give up... Then i tried youtube. Finally i found it in youtube. Thank God~ But i really hope i can get an MP3 Version of this song... anyone who had it, please tell me the link to the download. Many thanks ^^

The song got really nice meaning. ^^

A Super Sunday!

Super Sunday? What do i mean by this?
This story begins with... I was playing maplesea with Rachel. Since it will be her last day on maple for now, so, i stay up and play with her the whole night. =.=''' It was 530 in the morning when i go to bed. Wah! 530am!!! That's already morning! Anyway, i did sleep directly. I was having dreams for this late sleep. I am dreaming about Sing Ying. My god~ How come she came into my dream? Thought it would be maplesea. Since i played maple the whole night. LOL! But no, it was her that came into my dream. I feels like i spend the whole day with her. @@ Of course, in the dream. LOL! I woke up so so so late today. See why i call this a super sunday? Because i spend the day sleeping... 4pm then i woke up. The sun was already setting on me. =.='''
Anyway, i don't remember the dream. It feels so real that i really do feel as if i was spending the whole day with her. @@ My god~
ANYWAY!!! I woke up at 4pm... i can't believe myself too... 4pm...
Then only i knew that we will be going to my uncle's for celebration of "Chap Goh Mei" =.=''' WTF!
So, i go clean up, bathe, and prepare myself. Then i receive sms from Kai Wei, My dear sis that came back from Australia. =.=''' My God! I am invite to go to her house. She is having a gathering!!! I am sure that a lot of old buddies will be going. So sad i can't join...
So, i went to my uncle's house. But that is not a regret going there. I had a really nice dinner there. LOL! Have i told you that my cousins are great cooks? Haha.
I forget to take pictures of them. Too bad can't show you my handsome and beautiful cousins. Hehe... One of my cousin was taking photo all over the place. She just came back from Australia too. LOL~ So, might as well be a statue. Wahaha~ Then we all exchange msn and emails... I go home at around 9pm. Then Michael Liak, the old buddy called. We went out for some supper. That means, i am going out. =.=''' So, we find a place to sit down and drink. Then chit chat chit chat whole night. =.=''' Super Sunday, i only live for the night today...
A really super sunday... i miss my friends gather...
A really SUPER SUNDAY! I wasted my time sleeping whole day...
A Really Really SUPER SUNDAY! I spend the whole morning dreaming...
=.='''
Anything special lately? Not quite... Sorry for not updating much. I suppose i was lazy to come here and start blogging on stupid daily lifes that is not interesting and kind of meaningless too. LOL!!!
Do my readers want to read boring stuff? I don't think so too. Right? Hahahha~ So that's it for now!

First Day of Class

It is me again. See the title?
Haha! Suppose everyone do. I am back to school again. First day. Lets make a simple report and feedback on how is the class.
Overall it is nice. Since there are only 9 person in class, so that is like so few people and the lecturer can attend to everyone 1 by 1, that makes the teaching more effective. Good!
The Lecturer is a friendly person. So... that gives credit to the teaching too. LOL!
Besides, the stlye of teaching is so damn cool. It force the enthusiasm of students to complete their homework. How? No answers will be given to those who didn't send in their homework. !!! My God!
Classmates are all very quiet and nice. Most important of all is that no extra noise and, they ask quite some questions, making it really nice for me as i have no need to ask much. XD
So... lets conclude it. Overall Rank A-. XD
Why? Because, WHERE THE FUCK IS MY FRIENDS!!! Got them then is A+ already. XD Anyway, having A- is already nice right. Anyway, it is too early to judge too. Need to take back what i said earlier =X
A few more classes then maybe i can tell. Now it is really a bit too early to decide. LOL!
Anyway, something came to my mind though. Destiny. If you notice, i had added something new to My Motto Column. Did you Notice?
If no, don't worry. I will type it here again. LOL!
!You are not born to be who you are, you yourself decides and makes who you are!
This has come to my mind quite some time now. Maybe putting it out may give me more strength to overcome more obstacle. Who knows what may happen?
Think i should stop here. Haha! Getting some sleep and prepare for tomorrow's challenge. Good Night everyone!

Boring Days~

Schools had started few days already while i, The Special One stills "loiter" at home. LOL! I should be studying or working by now! Better than staying at home and rot. =.='''
Anyway, This coming Friday will be my first class. Hmm... wonder how and what will i be studying this coming Friday? It is not for me to decide though. Haha! Anyway, let's just get ready for Friday.
I am yet to receive any phone call from Horwath... Wonder am i dropped out from the resume? LOL! Maybe the procedures require some little time. XD That's the reason why i am not receiving any phone call yet. Maybe it will ring tomorrow or a bit later but sure it will be in January and start off work in February. I hope that is what is really happening now. LOL! It is also kind of odd to start off at mid Jan right?
Lately what i do was ~Wasting Time~
I should allocate my time well, revise F5, do some work out and not just sit there whole day and day dream or even let my mind blanked! Didn't move my brain at all. Just hope that it will not hang or malfunction when time comes to study and work. XD
Wonder if i can coupe with it? I think i should get myself busy on something and stop thinking craps. Or maybe should i get something to do. Focus on some mathematics or something rather than brain stop on something that is not giving much worth. LOL!
Suppsoe this will be the full stop for this blog now. LOL! Hope that tomorrow can be spent meaningfully. LOL!

Applying for Work

Haha!!! Ola amigos~
It has been awhile. 2009 has come. A new Year... a new life. LOL!
I am applying to work with Horwath. Wonder how is the outcome. This will be a turning point of my life as my life style sure will change 75% at least.
No longer sleep late, wake late, play late, and may even stop my games. LOL!!! And... income and burden... more stress to handle.
So... How will it be? Only when the time comes, i will know. Getting worried sometimes... am i able to coupe with the new life or will i collapse?
Anyway, there is no choice to make. If it is to change, i MUST do it. LOL!
MUST! LOL! No space for failure. Pushing so hard? Haha... Of course... i have to try to bring the best of me. So i can fulfill my dreams. As to everyone is looking down on me, i will be telling everyone... i am not a weakling. And to those who looked down on me, i will use my action to tell them that i am better than anyone of u. LOL! >< joking... just that i also demand respect.
hahahA! Wish me all the best! >.< Strive for Excellency!