Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Random

i'm turning 21 soon. but it feels like i have been through half of my life. Somehow, it maybe true. If i died on 42, i really live half my life already! haha. So true that it is unbelievable. But anyway, life is like a roller-coaster ride. I wonder... last night, i was unable to sleep. my memory started to play.
Someone said, think about your childhood memory. happy one. I tried... and i feel very disappointed. It was only a 5 minutes "movie clip". Maybe less. what i am most disappointed about is that my childhood memory with my parents don't even worth 1 minute. How sarcastic can that be?
But the truth is... there are people out there that have worse experience than me...
It was today, that i feel my life is a dream. So dreamy that i don't even know if i am awake or i am asleep. Wondering... when i was taking my mock exam, it feels like a dream that i told myself to wake up. So funny yet scary... Even death came to my mind that i m about to kill myself. LOL! What a great dream. Still, it's real. I am sure that it is real. I am not in a dream. If i ever attempt to kill myself, i won't wake up. I will ended up DEAD! It's not a dream. It real!!!

Monday, September 27, 2010

Life as A Student

Suddenly this topic came to my mind...

Life as a student. Ah~ My life as a student is coming to an end. Life goes on. I suppose this is what every graduates or graduates-to-be are thinking about. Finally, leaving school and going to the society. Excited as i am... At the same time... worried. Wonder if i am capable of handling what is going to come into my life sooner or later. But, that doesn't really matter yet. The need to guarantee a PASS is the priority now.
I read about the articles. The syllabus are going to change in June 2011. Basically, this is the worst news for a student. I~ personally, feel that... D***! Why so fast? I can't complete until June 2011 at least! sigh* What can i do about it???
While all these stupid thoughts came to my mind...
I think it over. This time, with calmness and unambiguity. Finally, realized that, every human will be a student for the rest of their lives! This is the actual FACT! This thing that troubles me is insignificant. It is totally meaningless. Because, no one will graduate eventually as a STUDENT! Life is about learning. No one can stop learning until they die. Laugh Out Loud! Unless, they choose not to accept... However, even not accepting is a knowledge of how and why not to accept. You still learn something! Sarcastic~ Life is just SARCASTIC!
Learning... perhaps spending the whole life understanding the true meaning of life is better than everything. Spend some time sit quietly and meditate. Listen to the sound of life. Perhaps one day, i can communicate with nature and understand the meaning of LIFE better...

~When vision comes from the heart~

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Sharing ^^



最近很多人都说烦~ 那就来一首 “最近比较烦” !哈哈!听了就别再怨烦了。每个人都有他的烦恼。

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Special Edition

I had been posting in English all these while... and i thought... Hey, why not try to post something in Chinese? LOL?

~人生~
是我这次想谈的话题。从出生,成长,死亡。过程各有不同。就是因为这个不同,让人们觉得不公平。很奇怪的是,人类们只比较自己缺少的那部分,从来都不比较自己拥有的。更可笑的是,人类还找借口。。。“满足是成功的阻碍。” 但是又创造了 “知足常乐”。那又有多少人真正了解 “知足常乐” 这四个字呢?
我看见每个人的心都有个黑点。或许,这黑点就是所谓的 “不满”。只要是人类,都有着这个缺点。这也是所有罪的祸根。人说,“我知道什么是满足。我觉得现在的我很满足了。” 同时,又在背后唉声叹气,怨天尤人。一句 “不公平” 足以显示出人心的不满。。。
苦行,苦行。。。其实并不苦。真正的意义是和大自然融合为一。接受一切。不去作比较。在不存在和存在之间,找到个平衡点。。。或许这智慧很高深吧。要得到这种智慧需要大量的静修和静思, 更需要恒心去面对所有发生的事,快乐的,不快乐的。。。 都要一一面对。面对多了,自然就体会到了。人类都因为害怕失败,而不去面对。这样是无法成长的哦。很多人还不愿接受自己的错,遇到困难就逃避,遇到不顺就怨天怨人。。。
照照镜子吧~ 所有发生的事都是自己一手创造的。天灾躲不过,人祸可避免。就算发生了,也可以积极面对啊!
比较比较。人比人气死人。别跟别人比,跟自己比。每天照照镜子,跟镜子说,“我要比你还要好一点!” 只要每天都比昨天的自己好一点,成长就是无限的。无限是不是无敌?或许吧。。。在不和别人比较的时候,快乐自然就出现了。自己找找看吧。加油!

~Life~
will be the topic i would like to discuss. From being born, growing up, until death. Everyone have their difference. Because of this Difference, human feels unjust. Funny thing is, human only compare what they don't have with what others have and never compare what they have with what others don't have. They even find excuses, saying "Satisfaction is the enemy of success." However, human also have a saying, "Contentment is the key to happiness". How many people actually live by this saying???
I saw a dark spot in everyone's heart. Perhaps, this is the GREED of human. Every human are haunted by this Sin. Some may deny and say, "i know what is contentment and i am satisfied with what i have now." On the other hand, he or she feels depress and disappointed, blaming God, blaming others for what happen to them. A single saying, "Not Fair" is enough to show their greed.
Ascetic. Some people practise this to understand life better. Ascetic is not actually that bad. It is just to merge with Nature and understand life better. Not to compare, accept changes and adjust yourselves to meet the changes. Look for a balance in between existence and non-existence. This require lots of meditation to understand. Besides, facing problems, sadness, happiness... treat all as one. Face them with courage. This is how you grow. Fear to face failure makes people weak. Whenever they meet problems, they choose to run instead of facing it. That will not make you grow.
Look into the mirror. Tell yourselves. You can't control what is happening around you but you can control what is happening to you!
Comparing is a bad practice. Business wise, comparing can be done. When it comes to human. Comparing with others is the cause of hatred. Don't compare with others. Compare with yourselves. Have you ever think that if one day, your competition ran off, or your competition stop growing, you also stop growing? There is a limit to growth here. Why not make it INFINITE? Compare with yourself. Look into the mirror daily and said, "Hey there, i wanna be better than you!" If you can be better than yourself yesterday, you are a better man. None the less, you did it daily! That makes you a totally better person everyday!!! When growth is INFINITE, isn't that just INVINCIBLE? Look this up yourself. Good Luck!

Monday, September 13, 2010

Feels like stopping... But no~ Life goes on. ^^

Lately, there has been tonnes of stress piling up. So heavy that it brings me headache almost every day. Headache man.
Sometimes feel tired... but, still need to hang in there. Just hope that it can be done as soon as possible. So near now. So near. It's like the last step. It may be hard, but it is worth fighting for! GOOD LUCK!
GO GO GO!

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Hatred Stopped...

Perhaps, it is time to stop this meaningless hatred. How much you hate, it cannot change anything. The better choice will always be to change yourself. Just like the Mirror case i talked about in the previous post.
Happiness can be so simple...
Equation
Happiness = What you need - What you want
When you want more than what you need, that makes you worry, anxious, tired, and sad sometimes when u can't get it. So, be fulfilled. This is the simplest way to be happy. But, people will say, " you are just a guy who have no dreams. " LOL? So how???
Neither way, i don't give a damn. I have my own dream to chase. What people think, i don't care. That is what the Peacecraft Prince was like before.

Found~ Not lost anymore.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Hatred Continues...

The day for the Result is coming soon. Stress haunted me even more... Even feel the spirits are talking to me every night i sleep. Cooling down myself... persuading not to think so much about it.
Yes... Life is a torment. HOWEVER...
IT DEPENDS! arh? Political word. DEPENDS.
Why depends? simply because, how you see life, influence how you live your life. When you are naive, you trust everyone, this world is full of good guys. Isn't that just sarcastic?
When you think that everyone do everything for a purpose, then supposed, u are near to graduate from the University of the Society. Meaning??? Yes, you are now certified human. A human with heart of Caution. Where human call it wise. Actually, the wise will consider, but not caution. Think about it??? If you think people around you are bad, they WILL BE. Life is a MIRROR! Things happen the way you see. Yet people blame God for the mistakes and so called bad luck... No such thing. This world is Fair. Very Fair. That's why personally, i Believe in The Natural Law of Equivalent Trade. Grieve! Equality before the law... EQUAL! Believe, then it exist! BELIEVE!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Hatred for Human

Recently, my hatred towards human grew anxious. Everyday, i m thinking about world destruction. Sanity is no longer in my dictionary... Sad.
SAD! Why did i become of this? There must be a reason behind this thought of massacre. The reason, i think i am clear about it. Just, it is hard to be expressed out. Things happen... Stress build up... I got tired...

Lets start off with the great 7 Sins. Pride, Wrath, Greed, Envy, Lust, Sloth, Gluttony.

Everyone own them. That is why humans are being called sinner in Christian's teaching. Yes. I agree. It is because of this Sins... Money existed. $$$
How much i hated money... how much i loved money!!!
I was thinking, since it is irrelevant to think about using "Do~Ju~Ka~Geh~Bun~Shin" + "A~Ma~Te~Ra~Su" (Naruto Terms, if u watch Naruto, u will know what is it) to destroy the world, might as well do it the relevant way. How???
GAMBLING! Use the power of 7 Sins. Greed.
Starts a gambling business. Yes. First, i can earn lots of $$$. Since i loved money, i can owned them. Second, i can burn all the money i earned. Since i hated money as much as i loved them. WHY? Why don't donate it???
Simple... Since human are GREEDY, they will use it for themselves instead of letting the money reaching the people who really need it. But, not all humans are bad? This, is questionable. The power of Money. The desire~ if there is a million dollar cash of donation, the DESIRE to get it and run... is not easy to tame.
Human... GREED FOR MORE. Because of that, Earth will be destroy. Humans... always thinking they are clever... create more... INVENT! YES! SURPASS GOD? DNA genetic... create human? so on and so for... Sad... really sad.
People who read... Please take a look and think about it. Where is the area with the most natural disaster occurring?
Where human produces and creates most, that will be the place with more disaster happening.
Human, please wake up before falling asleep permanently... The Creator is sad. Really sad.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

21th July 2010

Engagement Party
Wonderful, Insane, Joyful and CONGRATULATIONS to Angie + Ben, newly engaged couple.
Basically, i don't have much comment about it. They made things simple. That's perfectly good! The party was nice... Food was nice... People was nice... Everything's nice...
Even LMAO and nearly ROFL tonite.. Sanity... can never be the word to describe me tonite. Because, i lost it tonite. Class tomoro, might as well pack up and get ready for class tomoro.
GOOD LUCK WITH P LEVEL! OSH OSH! GAMBATEH NEH!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Achievement ^^

Yeah!
Yeah! Yeah!
Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!
Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! Yeah!
I finally did it! Now, it is the last paper! F8! ^^ Good Luck!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Valentine's Day + Chinese New Year

14th February 2010
I spend my day with my cousins and ... totally with my cousins. LOL! Playing whole day. Does it bother me? It kind of bothers me. But i can't name it. I don't know how to spell it. So annoying. But, still, it is a 24 hours day. Past through just like that. I wonder... Should i just spend the rest of my valentines just like this? Playing and fooling around, hiding at home sleeping, so called freedom of mind and worries; or find that special someone and spent it with her?
Of course, everyone would choose to have a partner on valentine's day. Who don't? LoL! Life...
The ring is still with me. But i feel so heavy to carry it on my neck. Since it is so heavy, why i insist on carrying it wherever i go? ...
Haiz...

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Soaring! for a reason...

Me, Sir Z, intended to soar. Own ACCA and finish it THIS VERY YEAR! Complete Part2 this year, and complete part 3 NEXT YEAR! Wow... My dream seems so near. So near that i can even feel it. But i don't know if i really can make it... Confidence! CONFIDENCE PLEASE! LOL! Try my best, this is all i can do. DREAM CHASER! LOL! At least, completing ACCA give me confidence and courage to find u again. I wonder why i am always trying to avoid you. I feel sad doing so. I wanted to face you. LOL! ...

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

I wanna SIGN! and do it LOUDLY!

Haih!~~~~
Haih~~~
Haih~~~
haih~~~
Haih~~~

Why wanna do so? Simply... Feel tired and annoyed. LOL! Tired of human... It was yesterday when my friends were joking about resigning from their job. Then he edit the resignation letter and changed it to to resign my post as human. LOL! That is very sarcastic. Humans... LOL! I am speechless because i myself is also a human. No wonder i hate my life. i hate human... that makes me hate myself, hate everyone... hate everything... although hatret doesn't show on me, it was built inside me... a dream so scary haunted me last night... I don't want to mention it... i don't want to remember...

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Lies...

Lie
In the Oxford dictionary, as a verb, it means to lay down, be in or assume horizontal position on supporting surface, rest on flat surface.
As a noun, it means intentional false statement, something that deceives.
i suppose, everyone understand the word "lie" even if i didn't flip up the dictionary and copy it here...
Lie, came from the word Life. A missing F makes Life become a Lie. In reality terms, somethings missing in your life makes your life a living false statement. Something missing, makes life a lie.
I feel thoroughly stabbed... sarcastic? It is still a painful experience, unforgettable experience. A lie can make life so miserable. People say, you can lie to the world, everyone believe in your stupid lies... but you can't lie yourself, because you know the truth. Some people tries to trick themselves... But, being the sole person who know the truth and not daring to speak it out, it tortures you. It tortures you so bad that you can't sleep at night, bad dreams haunts you. Tears follow you... grievance stays with you. Tell yourself, let it be... perhaps, it is a second of relief. But, reality is still reality...
Lie...

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

The prince went on a holiday trip

It was a Wednesday evening when i pack my stuff and follow my family to Penang. It was early. We were sitting in the airport for nearly 4 hours waiting for the plane! LOL! 4 hours! Wonder how i make it through without laptop or anything... Boarding around 9pm and reached around 11pm. So so tired. Sleep!!!
The next day, went to Kek Lok Si, a temple... After that, went to Queensbay SHOPPING! Of course, i have no idea... Anyway, after that, it is time to wait for the plane to Langkawi! PLANE PLANE PLANE! I think i spent at least 9 hours in the airport waiting for all the flight this time. LOL! Anyway, when i reached Langkawi, the car was ready there to pick us up. We went to the hotel, then we walk outside to have our dinner. IT IS SUCH A SMALL ISLAND! OMG! the next day, we went island hopping. It is the first time in my life to sit on a speed boat and went to the other smaller islands. LOL! By the way, there is also a chance to get close up to eagles! LOL!
Hmm... Sarawak Laksa and Penang Curry Mee... ARE THE SAME! Penang Laksa and Sarawak Belacan Beehoon... Are the same... i m speechless... lol...
Summarise everything, this trip is quite fun. But tiring. I really feel tired. People say holidays are suppose to be relaxing. But for me, i feel tired. Maybe because i can't sleep well at night. LOL! Anyway, END HERE! I don feel like uploading the photos. LAZY~ LOL!