A friend indeed!

Today, i had to walk my brother to school. He is already 13 and still need someone to walk him to school... Anyway, this is not the important part. What nice is i get the chance to meet my very best pal, PBL!
Haha... it has been quite some time already since the last time i see him. He is still the same. tanned skin, thin and tall. Many things happen between us. And that is how i get to know he will be the best friend ever.
Still remember, last time, years ago when we was form 5. That time we was having exam and my family goes on vacation. I was left alone at home. Unluckily, i fall sick. He came to my house, had a "vacation" at my house. I really do appreciate that time. Not only him, there are still some of them. These few people, are really really important as they had accompany me throughout my most hard and painful time. I still remember, it was 12th of May. I break up with my first-ex. And i was all alone. All alone. But they showed up. Cheering me up all the way. I really do appreciate the time they were around. It will be a precious moments, saved forever in soul.
There is another one, who is always so straight in her wordings. But that is how she is, thats is how she makes me let her into my bestest best friend list! JPC!
It is a coincidence, a surprise when i saw her, coming for tuition, additional maths taught by my cousin. Before i know her, i think she is a proud girl, leading a "strict" life. Until that time, i finally get to know, she is not what i think she was. She is friendly. Only her words are sharp and painful. (please don't be angry ya) But this is what nice about her. I do consult her for a better self. I actually treat her as my big sister! Although she didn't act like one, but i respect her as one.She did make me changed to be a better person! And i do appreciate her help. She is now taking on the course to becoming a teacher in the future. And hardly have the time to reply. Just hope that she can still remember me this little brother.
Timothy~ How can i forget you? TCYS!
This big guy, i just get the chance to see him on this Chinese New Year. He is more slim now. However, he is still the same, handsome and so charming. Having a big size, he still has a caring heart. We really had a great time together for our last 2 years time of secondary school life. We played, we got caught, scolded by teacher... Hahaha... Come to think of it, it is kinda funny now. But that was a great time we have there. Although we cannot be brothers in blood, but i really am happy to have such a friend like you. May the friendship last. We still have an unfinished business with Keegan Luke and Mr.Andrew LKC!
Here are the few of them, who had come into the top my bestest best friends list.If i am to continue writing about my bestest best friend list and about them, i think i will not be able to finish. My friends, i really do hope our friendship will last. Take care!

Defend Of The Ancient

I don't know what i can say about this... This game was introduced to me by a friend of mine, Daniel. This game really get into me for some time... Getting so into it. We go to CC (Cyber Cafe) for a match once in a while. Lately, i found it really stupid. It is always the same no matter how much you train and how you play. The one with a better knowledge of the game will always takes the upper hand. And... It don't really mean anything.
Ok... About DOTA. This is a game of battle among 2 teams. The Sentinels and The scourge. I did found books about these nightelves and Undead from Warcraft. It is nice to see the story of these thing. The writer really got a nice imagination.
This is a 3D game, where 2 parties fight each other out. Using skills, with health points and mana points, each hero has their own different ability. It is divided into 3 main type, strength, agility and intelligent.
I myself prefer agility hero cause, they move faster and swifter. Laugh out Loud. Anyway, i am kinda fed up with it. Using Agi hero all the time. So... after some time, i starts using Str hero... str is not bad oh... at least they are strong and have long health points(HP). Damage is also partially high! However, i also starts to get fed up of str hero. So... i try on Int hero! Wow... Int hero is slow, low damage, low HP. LoL. But one thing about Int hero, they are good! those clever player, can make good use of the skills.
Anyway, i have no idea why this game is so nice... it is kinda violent... in a way...LoL. This was quoted from a friend of mine who say DOTA is violent! Anyway, it is a nice game. Whenever you feel stress or unhappy, get into the game, start killing! It might be able to cure it! What a miracle... ya right!
Anyway, it is not recommended to play it all the time. There is news about Dota that is bad. Really bad. Especially to those with relationship. Some will get so obsess about the game as they can't take losing or just enjoy the feeling of killing and winning the battle all the time. They starts to play alot. And that means forget about their love ones. It is sad...
Lets conclude. This Dota thing, is nice just to be an entertainment. Play it once in a while to relief stress and strain.

Maplestory Friends!

Maplestory, this is a game i started to play since Dec 2006. Since this game is an online game, i get to know some online friends from all over Malaysia... and also Singapore!
How i started this game was because of my cousin. they introduced me into playing this game. Laugh out Loud. This game is also kinda entertaining when you feel down cause, u can just get in there, see those cute cute graphics and facial expression. And also find some really really nice friends oh!

Let me begin with HoliePenguin! Penguin! Pigguin! CJW!~ ^^
PENGUIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is how i greet her whenever i saw her online. Or the other way round, HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whenever she saw me online. LoL... Sounds stupid right? but this is what games are meant to be. Can let you be stupid... And, she is also stupid. Wahahaha! This very person here, is the best friend ever oh... My first Maple Friend since my first character.

Clement! The PRO! tnemelc01!!!
Clement~ My first ever maple friend from SG (Singapore). He is a nice guy... Sometimes really pessimistic, but this is how he is. I think is because he is still single until now. Have no confidence about himself. I can only conclude my comment about this guy with one word, A VERY VERY nice pal to have! CLEMENT, i pass the "ball" to you, because i trust you. ^^

Rachel Jia Shuen( i know your name you don't know mine! wakakakaka)~ Serenity89!
Haha... this girl oh... My maple dar dar~ very pro de... of course not in maple(Don scold me ya XD). It is in her study... She is science student, tackling medicine! Wow... this is a course that is very hard(to me) to take on. Although i never meet her in real, and i also don't know her much, i think, she is a nice person. It is nice at least, when i feel down, i can seek for her help. LOL... Although she didn't help much, just... oh ah oh at whatever i said. HaHa... Anyway, it is nice to know this crazy girl.

Aiele~ JessMinMin!!!
This one... Another from SG. To be frank, I really do admire her style and her personality. Haha... Being a girl, and still so funky and play so much... Lost count of how many ex she had... Anyway, she is a great friend i have through maple. I really like being around and talk and chat with her as she always can make of a way to let people around her being happy all the time. Never ever see her sad. Wow... just super cheerful! ^^ Aiele, i really am grateful to know you oh. No thxs required ^^

My Partner DK~ KaeiShinz! Kelvin!
Kelvin, he is funny. Always being lame and makes people laugh. He is sometimes kinda emo as he gets upset for little things. Kelvin, it is nice knowing you and nice having your help. You really are a nice partner. One day we can reach 4th Job(maple thing) together!

There is plenty more friends i know in maple, of course, here are the most and most most important of all! I really am happy to know all of you. Hope can meet you guys in real, and may the friendship lives forever.

Stress and pressure?

It is odd... i have been feeling stress and pressure lately... i wonder what is causing this. It is somehow very breathe taking... make me worn out so easily everyday. Anyway, i think i am supposed to be facing it with everything i got. Pressure is something everyone will face. It only differs how everyone treat it. If i can't take it, i am totally not ready to face the world...
Yes... lately, my luck is still with me... but it seems like, i don't like it. I feel like my heart is gone somewhere. It is not with me anymore. Feel more like a zombie. But, it is not like me to be giving up half way here. This is not a nice thing to do to say, "i give up!" or "God!~ this is so unfair to me!"
No! this is not what i do... This is for the weak that is trying to run away from problems.
Stress? i am attacking directly on you now. give me all that you got!
LoL... Is it odd that i start to talk to myself? After receiving news that i had passed my 2 papers on 18th february, this stress and pressure thing just came to me. It is so unbelievable. I know, most people will feel relief as they knew they had finally go through this heart-stopping part of life when you are waiting for your result.
Anyway, it is time to face this stress... maybe i need some rest... and then get back to the stop-point and fire off hitting my target! Gambateh Mr.Z. Go get your dream!

What A blissful day!

I had a really nice day. I was still feeling nervous all morning, since the result for my exam is coming out soon, there is no space for relaxation. However, my friends and i tried to stay calm all along. We had some card games, talk some nonsense, trying not to focus thinking about the exam result.
Hey, some luck i possess. I win all along. From the first game until the last game i played, i never lose. That is some sort of blessing i got. That particular time, my mind was thinking that if i have my luck all put it into the examinations, and wish that my result turns out to be nice, i would love to lose now, and win later.
Anyway, it is 3 in the afternoon. The result had finally been released. The urge for me to go and see the outcome is so intense that there i doesn't have much concentration in class. Nervous.
Finally, recess came. We(my fellow friends and i) take our time, walk to the computer lab, and click on the internet browser icon. Search for accaglobal.com, and there, it comes. We take turns, keying in our password and look at our result... heart is beating so fast that there might be chances for people fainted. Laugh out loud... like that would happen... =.=
My turn, my turn! keying in my password, i prayed. i wish i can see something good... poof!
TADA! OH MY GOD! I passed both my papers. This is such an excitement! we gave each other a Hi5 and start congratulating each other. Of course, we also feel sad for those who can't make it pass the exam. At least, no one cried.
After getting the result, i don't even pay much attention in class. Luckily the lecturer just give us some exercises to do. Anyway, this is just a short excitement and blissfulness. For some unknown reason, happiness just faded. I think i should not be happy for just such little little success and forsake my studies on other papers. There is more to come and i cannot just stop here. Come to think of it, i still have a long way to go. This is just the beginning. Wish me luck. Mr. Z, Lets excel. Reach for the top and make your future comes true. All my friends, move on. We will make it to the top!

I Visited a Place that Gives me some Sad Memories...

It was 2 years ago, that particular place, the month was April... That was a place where i go for a holiday with lots of friends and teachers. It was a school outing, a holiday for prefects only. Of course, some teachers are in charge. That was the time, we had a holiday together, i had a wonderful time with my first ex. It was... deep. I wanted to wash it away, but that memory is just too hard to be cleared of my head.
I swore never to go to that place again. As that is a place with nice memories, it also gives me a "heartache". I tried to forget them. Yes. I did forget them... for some time... ya right...
Sadly, today, my parents brought me there for some family outing. My GOD... there again? Those memories just came back into my head... flowing in like water. I had to face all those things all over again. Watching the place, everything is still the same... only people changed. (i am of course one of the person that changed) It is so ridiculous. I saw the past... the place we had our dinner, we played... so on and so for... Heck... My heart starts to ache again...
However, ever since it is a past, i don't have to put it on myself so hard. I should just let it go. (hey! i got a girlfriend now. And she is great. The best that i had ever knew) So... anyway, just let it be then. I showed my parents around, it was not that bad as that place also makes me remember some of my friends' stories over there. I still remember, a very best friend of mine, had a sad holiday as his gf break up with him. But he is now back to normal now. And that was a 2 years ago. My GOD. I suppose i m the only one that remember so much.
Anyway, everyone should treasured what that they feel important to them. Of course, it is a important to learn from mistakes. And, i have learned a lot from that particular holiday 2 years ago. Friends are important in your life. Learn to forgive and forget, it really makes your life better.

Lost and still finding...

Lost? What is missing? My dog? My cat? Laugh Out Loud. Too bad i didn't raised any pets. For some reason, my parents don't allow me to have pets. Wonder why???
So... Lost and still finding... what am i finding anyway? This is a very tough question to answer. Even i, myself don't know why. I believe, some people is alike me. They are also looking for themselves. Some people tend to loss their personality as a result of too concern with how others looks at them. This is the main reason for people to hide their real personality and try to use a new face to meet people. This is almost like cheating. I think i am like this too. It is a sad case. Really sad.
Finding myself... This started when someone told me something that is hard to forget for life. She says, i am wearing a mask to face people. This mask is causing me to loss myself. After thinking about it, i really am. I do feel sad. Cause i don't remember. I don't know how or what is my personality. I changed like weather. So unpredictable. Some even say i am negative. HaHaHa? That is so untrue. If i am negative, i won't be thinking about improving myself already. Maybe i am afraid of losing. But improving yourself is not a crime right? But... What that someone says really does makes sense. It is more nice to just be yourself. Now, when you get lost, when you finally get to realize that you want to know who you are, that is the time, you feel blurred... you feel lost... feel... uncomfortable.
However, i believe, someday, i can find myself. My true self. Maybe it is not what i expected, but it is real. It is pure and it can bring happiness. Wish me luck everyone. ^^

Valentine's Day, Mr.Z

Happy Valentine's Day. This suppose is the day, when couple hang out together, spend their lovely time to nurture a better relationship. As the word happy is there, it is suppose to be happy, full of bliss and of course, sweet.

Happy Valentine's Day, everyone greets me. As usual, i will give a reply just the same. But tagging along a shameful feeling, i feel sorry for my dear.
It is hard to get the chance like this when we are free and are back in hometown. She will be leaving to study soon but i... end up doing nothing today. Just spend my time here, writing. I don't know what to do. I am such a good for nothing boyfriend. I am trapped at home.
So... i decided to send her a message. She didn't even blame me. She even says never mind. It is ok if i can't make it. But i think, deep inside, she might be sad. Hiding and taking all the pain for herself, she is really the best.
When i get the chance to see her soon, I wanna hug her tight, tell her i owe her too much. Forever is too short a time, as i will love her all my life, each day, until the day i die. Spending Valentine's day alone? I don't really think so. If you have her in your heart, you are never alone.

Happy New Year Mr.Z!

Hello, Happy Chinese New Year~ Mr.Z, Happy is a simple word. According to the Dictionary, it means joy, bliss, delighted. Chinese New Year, is also known as the Lunar New Year. For some reason, i feel that new year is like everyday routine. Difference is that it is a holiday with "ang pau"(red packet). This is of course for kids only. Those that are married, on the other hand, will be suffocating from financial crisis if the "boss" don't give a nice amount of bonuses to the employees. So... is CNY (Chinese New Year) really that happy after all?
It can be true. For a reason, it is some sort of free holiday where you can rest. However, it is also false as you need to get everything ready for CNY. Is there really time for you to rest in CNY? Some choose to go traveling. This can avoid such problem. I do agree with that. Haha. But look at this from different perspective, as a teenager, i don think that will be a nice idea. This is the best time to gather around with your friends and get "crazy" ; as a grown-up, it is better to go traveling to avoid all this mess and "complicated" things. Plus, u can relax your mind after a whole year of stress and pressure from work~
Mr.Z is not feeling much better this New Year, Mr.Z is tired of it. Getting all bored from this game of going here and there(visiting) and then going back home dreaming. It is tiring. And, every year seems the same and meaningless. Buying new cloth... that can be done anytime as long as you have the money. playing firecracker... The 31 Aug also got such fireworks that can be seen. the 1st of january every year also got fireworks. So what is so special about it anyway? Yes~ some say it is one in a year event, laugh out loud, ya right, like you cannot live another year to see this thing happen again? c'mon. Birthday is also once in a year, buy new cloth has big meals, ain't that the same?
Anyway, it is just nice to have such event to bring everyone together. Those that are away from home, working overseas, came home for dinner. Gather to have a meal. This is really a nice practise. Look on the bright side, and everything will turn out to be nice. As there is a saying, "everything happen must be good". There must be a reason behind everything that happen~

If tomorrow never come...

It is like a daily routine for me to think about what am i doing everyday... I wake up in the morning, go brush and wash. Then had my breakfast... then get ready for school. After school, go back home. Forget about the eat and bath, do revision a bit, play game a bit... it continues like it never end...
I take a look at my parents... They are also repeating the same thing, over and over everyday.
I watched a drama... it is about brothers fighting over their parents' property... It is sad... a Will should be made in earlier times before u die. But letting them know how much property you got, they will begin to plan on how to inherit your property. However, this is not the point.What important is that brothers and sisters should love each other and not quarrel for little little thing. It does vexed me when i see the elder brother, his greed make him do whatever it takes to break his father's trust and love to his younger brother. Why is this happening? Greed...
If tomorrow never come, what is that you can take with you to another world? Your sin, Your deeds... Not your money. Not your property.
If tomorrow never come, what you intended to do cannot be done. Is it a good idea to take things for granted just that you think you can live through tonight to see tomorrow again? No one knows when will one's life ends. So leave no regrets in whatever you do.
If tomorrow never comes, Who will you be hard to part with? Did you treasured them before you lost the chances? Human always learn to treasure only after losing something. Peculiar? More like sarcastic.
If... it will never end your worries if you work it out. So do what it is truthful to your heart. Be true to yourself and go where your heart takes you... Do not let the devil in you, take over your life.