Night Terror !!!

Nightmares!
Damn those Nightmares... It has been days... my good night sleep is now spoiled. I don't have a sleep without nightmares for days. So tired of it. I have no choice but to read some articles about Nightmares to cure myself.
I find myself... suffering nightmares... these... are cruel. They take away my sleep. I told my friends about it. They think i am joking. =.=''' Some even say i must have done something bad. I can swear. I didn't. Why is this happening to me? WHY? What did i do wrong to suffer like this? but i don't feel sad about it. NO! i am not. I did get myself into reading more n more articles. Gaining more knowledge than before. It do helps me. LoLs... so i am thanking Nightmares now... hahaha...
Anyway... I really hope these night terrors can stop. My life will be ruined... Or should i just learn to live with it. As i learn of nightmares as a sign of inner sight. Something i can learn from nightmares. Something important that can help improve my life. Yes. I did find certain website that decode your dreams. Unfortunately, they are kinda accurate. A bit scary when i read. LOLS. Cause it is so damn true. =.='''
It is now almost 2 in the morning... And i am still here... not having my sleep. Why? Perhaps i am under stress.. perhaps i am thinking too much... perhaps i am a coward, running away from these nightmares, running away from facing my true self. Sad~
Yet... Who knows of my sadness? Who cares?!!!
But this is my problem. NO ONE HAS TO CARE! NO ONE CAN CARE... no one... T_T
I feel lonely in the night. Night is a curse. No wonder everyone goes to bed at night. Staying up all night gives you no good. It is always best to get some sleep at night.
But i will not give up. Standing alone... It is ok. Alone alone la! Cause loneliness has become my truthful friend. Hahahaha. I acknowledge him. He is always here with me. Never leave me. Never once. I only didn't notice that he is here with me when i got friends around. But when they leave, he is still here. See how faithful is he! Never leave me~ So touched.
Hahahaha~ But sadly, my eyes never gets wet since... i forgotten. This cold blooded creature that lives in me is now so free. =.=''' So damn free. Remember i gave him a name... ?? What is it again? Dark? Doom? I don't care anyway. Dark will do... Luke is not around... Dark is roaming free... Zechs is tired out... And the evil one, Alexander =.=''' he is contaiminating my mind. CLK CLK~ Time to wake up! Stop this insanity in playing in your mind...

Challenged!

I was tempted. An urge to fight back. A challenge came to me. Damn myself! Damn! I really hate it. I have yet to face challenge ever since... or is it that i gave up myself to run away from challenges... But, yet again... Now... once again, the fire of retaliation is burning within. This is a challenge i will take on. Madam Tan, my F6 lecturer. Her words are sharp, it may not be harmful to my classmates, as for me, i feel humiliated. A start of battle again. "The left-handed are supposed to be more clever( i am a left-handed), but it seems to me that it is not true..." That, i believe, madam Tan does not imply it on me. But i do feel the shot. It pains. It trigger my emotions. I feel challenged!
This is just the start... and again, it has been quite some time i never accept challenges... i think i had forgotten the feeling of being challenged, the feeling of anger. Now, my anger boils. It is time to let the inferno out. I need to unleash the strength of anger, distress and agony. Damn these negative power is so damn strong now. I feel like exploding. It is time to show them my power. These negative power has been stored long enough to have a great amount of impact! But it is great. Something has come to me. A challenge that is, i accept it! Wait and see my true colors.
The silence of Anger has now came to wrath. I cannot stop the fire now. Lucky... still able to stick my fingers on the keyboard and not spoiling it.
Time to say bye bye. Until my negative power is over, i will have problem controlling my emotions! It is recommended to stay away from me... SO... LONELINESS! HELLO AGAIN! WAHAHAHAHA! WELCOME TO MY LIFE!

Life Cycle

LoLs... This is certainly an issue to the living. Or should be more specific, mortals. Everyone will face this, life cycle thingy. Don't say, we are already in it. For example, we are born, grew up, mature, old, sick then die. =.= lame ... Who can run away from this life cycle thing?
Ok... talking about life cycle. It is a topic in my F5. Man... F5...
Life cycle costing. The product life cycle. First, development. Research and development will be done in this stage. Then comes introduction. The product will be going through massive advertising as it is out in the market. Big expenses... After that will be Growth. In this stage, the product's sales will grow. The company will start to makes profit out from it. The cost incurred before will be covered. Following Growth will be Maturity. The product is now having stable sales and have net profit. This is when the company gains from the product. Of course, everything will come to an end. So here come decline, the final stage. Of course, the mangement will to lengthen the time period of maturity, keep the product in the market. But anyway, it will eventually comes to an end. So... that will be goodbye. XD
Don't you find this thing almost the same as human life? Not only human life, it is also the life of all beings. Even trees grow and die in time. Time, the most cruel fate of human. Every human are bounded by time. We will die one day. But what we had done will be left behind. I like shakespeares' creation. Why? Don't you feel that he is a great man? He can make life and death so concrete. Words came to life. Even death becomes words, become "alive". Forget to mention, he kept his beloved beauty until now. Lasting for hundreds of years. He makes things immortal.
Life cycle, time... they took him away. But not his soul. Life cycle is cruel. Hahaha... But ever wonder, if one become immortal, living too long, perhaps 200 years of time, is it worth as much as the life of shakespeares? i doubted so. If he didn't make any commitment to the world, or just himself, his time of living in this world will become worthless.
I should stop comparing a made up person... let just put myself into the comparing work... =.='''
For example... i have yet to do anything that can make someone remember me to the time they die. I have yet to make the world remember my name. But i did do something. I write my thoughts here. At least, i may live as long as this blog is to read by people. But why care anyway? To live to be known by the people... I believe those who are in war, the soldiers who gave their life to protect the country, they are not remember. But those who only use their mouth... (examples are not shown as it will not be a good thing to do... people may think i m a critic) They earn their position. They earn their fame but they did not do much sacrifice to the world... so who cares anyway. What important is how much u think your life worth. Man... Headache... It is not a good thing to think too much of stuff...
So... Do what you must. Do what you think is correct. Everyone have their own perception. So there is no need of much thoughts of how others look at you. What important is how you look at yourself. Confidence is important! lols.
I'm getting out of topic. LOLS. Let' come back to LC. Life cycle. =.=''' Headache la... Think i'll stop here for now. Catch up to where i stopped next time. XD

The Game Started. . .

Ever since school started, i hardly play games. Umm... Not hardly. Just reduce a lot. Not games actually, can say touching the computer. LoLs... And of course, blogging. How can i forget? hehe... So, today i finished up all my piled up homework and come blogging again. Hmm... Many things did came to my mind. I was intending to write it back then. But my lazy bone keep me off the keyboard. Hahaha... The game started...
I take up F4, F5 and F6 this semester. Law, Performance management and taxation. Law and taxation is killing me in a way.
Let's start 1 by 1. F4, Law...
F4, Corporate & Business Law
Mr.Kho, our F4 lecturer is great man. He is kind and friendly... a bit too friendly la. XD Never see him get agitated when the class gone wild and everyone chatting everywhere. LOLS!!! Not actually. Just a bit noisy. His english is just great. Or maybe it is just me... =.= i find problem catching up to him. He speak so fast sometimes and i do find problem with my vocabulary and understanding. But anyway, i will try to catch up to him. None the Less!!! Brush up on my english more. MUST!!!
F6, Taxation
Guess what happen here... Mdm Tan... Our beloved lecturer. I do find her strict. Really strict. There is no time to catch a breathe in her class. Lecture... exercise... Lecture... tutorial... lecture... test... then go home. No break... Got la... toilet break, 5 minutes. But i think it is good. Good for me. At least i don't have the time to talk. Besides, during lectures, she likes to ask questions... This is the part that makes me awe her. Not talking can't help. U need to look at her when she lecture or look at the screen. If u keep looking down or looking at the notes, she will sure penalize you and then keep on asking you questions. =.= Some sort of training... To be more confident... stress...
Anyway, the game has started. Do you want to quit? This is a question i ask myself. Of course NO! Is this what you want? This question will make me think long, and make me hanging half way in the sky... I don't really know. As a matter of fact, i had already come so far. I will not turn back! So, the only thing to do now is to hang on! How about getting serious and really cut off games totally? That may be a good way to achieve better results. It is worth a try.
Try your best Zechs!

Vacation!!!

Vacation, a nice word. Too bad. It isn't happening on me. My parents are going on a vacation to China. Oh dear... as the eldest son, i had my responsibility to take care of my little brother. He is already 13, take care? Like how? man ...
Ok... Let's start. The first day was still nice. I took them to the airport, go home. Then, i bring my bro to had dinner. First day was easy as it was a Saturday. Nothing much to do. "Luckily" too, my holiday is ending soon ... =.=''' I had my class starting on Wednesday.
Sunday, like usual, i went down to buy some food for myself and him... then at night, cook him dinner. Ok... Sunday through...
Monday... i take my bro to school. Of course, the school was not far away from home, but i was told to drive him to school. Not let him walk to school. So, i must drive him to school. 12 noon. Everyone knows, 12 noon traffic jam. might as well stuck with the jam, bring him to school, drive back home again. Took me 30 minutes you know? the school is like just 1 kilometer away and he refuses to walk to school. =.=''' Nevermind. Bear with it...
Tuesday, Same thing again...
Wednesday, i got class at night. Since now in degree, the school does not offer much classes in the daytime, so most of my class from nowadays onward will be at night. I took him to school, drive home. rest until 3 something, start driving to my school. 3 something. Why so early? reason is just simple, avoid traffic jam! =.=''' I hate traffic jam. Who don't? i went to school, have my class... oh boy, the lecturer was like ... strict. She was always asking questions. We must pay 100% attention as if she will be asking questions anytime. Was so tired after class... but still forced myself to walk to the nearest food stall to buy something for my bro. He hasn't eat as i didn't buy him dinner yet. It was already 9.30... reached home around 10. We had our dinner or should make it supper, then, i was so tired i went to bed like ... forgotten when.
Thursday, My friend came to my house. Nice. Too bad i need to do some laundry. So i just let them watch TV. LoLs. Then after i am done, i ask my friends to take my bro to school. LoLs... This sure helps alot. i don't have to drive in this "traffic jamness". After taking my bro to school, we went to have our lunch. Finally some rest. We have a little chit chat and then around 2pm, he takes me home. One of them follow as he had class that night, same as me. So... around 3+ we go to school. His home was near the school and i went to his home first as it was still early. Nice thing you know, i had my dinner at his place. Then after that, we went for our class. Same again, drag myself to the nearest food stall after class to buy food for my bro. Thursday over...
Finally, today... Friday. my parents will be home soon. I do find that it is hard to take care of others when you are even having problem taking care of yourself. LoLs... At least i feel tired. But that is a responsibility i must bear with. So.. i have no choice but to keep hanging on, the worse part is driving. I think if my bro is not around, maybe i don't have such burden. haha... he is my brother, how can i not care? Anyway, Let it be. Just a week to see if i am capable of taking of myself + my bro. People do grow. This, i believe, will be another lesson of survival, responsibility and independence for me. Good thing. Really good thing. At least i am happy i can learn. Chances are hard to come by.
There is a fact. One day, they will leave me. When that time comes, i will have to stand alone. This may be a nice training for me. As to stand strong even when u are alone. ^^
Ok now... I will have to stop here. Need to get myself up to pick up my bro and go get our dinner ready.