Tuesday, September 22, 2009

The Time Chronosphere

The clock hanging on the wall,
is just a device telling hours, minutes and seconds.
Ever notice a waterfall,
water came crashing but time passing cannot be noticed.
If time can go backwards,
a waterfall will still seems to be the same.
Something that had happened,
will stay the same no matter how you try to mend.
Why do people wants a time machine,
to go back in time and attempt to change the past?
Why do people want to go back in time,
to face the same mistakes made and sadness all over again?
What meant to happen happens,
as time only move forwards and never goes backwards.
So why reminisce our failure and regrets,
while we still can change our future by our action now?
But remember to look back,
as it is what that makes us now.
It is our past mistakes,
that makes us stronger and live better.
Time Chronosphere?
It is just something people use to dream,
to run away from problems they are facing now!

Saturday, August 22, 2009

What happen next?

Updates...
What's all this about. Firstly... exam. Few days ago, i was like... worried what is the outcome of the exam. In the end... I pass all 3 papers 1 go. Happy? =.= Of course i am. But happiness can be so short... so very short... 5 minutes? 10 minutes? =.=''' people celebrate whole day... perhaps whole week... me? I feel nothing. Wonder why? I just remember my promise to God. I swore to be a half vegetarian if i pass 3 papers 1 go this time. This is what i get. Thank God...
Of course, this is also my sacrifice. Something lost, something gain. Still remember the time without computers? 1 month some more? The misery... But human... When they achieve something, they tend to forget. Lately, i keep reminding myself. You come this far, because of how much u sacrifice. This is what you earn. If you don't keep it up, you will FAIL again. Pressure? hmm... somehow, i feel pressure. Who give me this pressure? Myself. LOL! Am i simply stupid or what?
Everyone... sees me... "CONGRATULATION! U r so LUCKY, so PRO pass 3 papers 1 go."
=.=''' Sianz... Of course, i can just say... thank you. Some of them, even think i am proud. They sees me as an enemy or what? Anyway, i don't care. I don't care. I am just happy being ME! Haih... if i really don't care, i won't feel such misery. Why do i have to change, to be so sensitive?
Shouting out LOUD~ I MISS THE OLD ME! I MISS MYSELF!
Who don't give a damn of what the damn hell is happening around me.
Who don't give a damn how others think of me.
Who is so damn self centered.
Who only wanted to win so badly that is willing to sacrifice nearly everything to achieve my goal.
Yes... Me, My Own, Myself!!!
But... fact is... i m not me anymore. =.=''' No longer me... because... i care. i care how others look at me.
Back to the exam result. Getting such result, i should be over the sky. But, i feel jz the opposite. I m in deeper pressure. What will be my next step? What should i do next? Life... is full of choices.
LoL. 1 super funny thing is that, i feel sad. even cried for no reason. Suppose there is a reason. Only i don't seems to know it. Or it is just that, i can release some steam? hmm...
What Happen Next?

Monday, August 17, 2009

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Rough Sea

Life is like a boat.
When we were young, we are floating on the river. It is easy for us to find a place to stop for some rest and repair.
Soon, we got fed up with the small place to play. So, we leave the river and went into a bigger river. On the way, there were jetties and land nearby. The current is slow and steady. Some, may faces fast current due to the rain, some may just stay the same.
The older we get, the bigger boat we have. We starts to wonder what is out there. So, we go further. Out into the straits. Straits are protected by the strong winds. We find a place to land when we get tired. But none the less, the journey doesn't end.
Now we were growing older. The boat have become a little bigger. So grow, some don't. This will need to depend on the users, us. How much we learn and how much stronger we made ourselves.
Time for the open sea. When we were out in the open sea, there is no place to rest. No jetties nearby. What to do? Hang in there... Some, may abandon boat. Some, may just cling on. Some, didn't go far, just stay near the starting point to keep safe. But none the less, everyone have to learn so we can survive the open sea. Waves... thunderstorm... Those who learn and grow their ships, will be stronger therefore staying alive is more easy. But a small boat, can also survive. As long as you try. It maybe hard, but it is possible. After the storm, is the calm sea. Then it is time to self repair your tiny boat and look for a harbor or Jetty to stop for improvement.
Life goes on...
Until your boat is old, rusty. Then it is time... But i believe, for such a long time. Destination, your dream, can however be achieved. Even if you didn't, as long as you tried, it is enough a memory to reminisce...

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Untitled... Because i have no idea what to name it yet.

Sometimes what you see,
you think it's everything.
Sometimes what you see,
may not be anything.
When and where will facts and truth come true?

When you believe,
facts and truth exist.
When people believe,
everything subsist.

Fact is Fact,
but none is real.
Because we believe,
they exist.

Discover this,
found out that,
scientists discover the facts.
If none believe,
facts never become facts.

Man can't fly,
but man believe.
So man flies,
dreams no longer are dreams!

Saturday, June 27, 2009

If life...

If I wish upon a star,
will my dreams come true?
If i wish and pray with hope,
will i be disappointed with what to come?

What if i never leave so far,
i would never lose so much.
But since what done is done,
there is nothing i can do to undone.

Maybe it is fate or destiny,
so just let it be and follow the way.
It is your choice,
it is what you choose,
so don't blame others for letting you loose.

If i ever get to choose again,
i would never choose this way,
to pick a road i never enjoy.
If so many if existed,
there will be neither regret nor wrong...

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Update!!!

WOOOO!!! Exam is finally over and... I get my Laptop back! YIPPEEE! == Actually i don't know how should i feel now. Worried for my result...
Anyway, Updates... May was DEVASTATING! It is like the worst time of my life... STRESS! Days with computer is really... MY GOD. NUTS! DRIVE ME NUTS! LOL!
Erm... just to tell everyone. I AM BACK! LOL! Wonder if this is real... i don't think i am really BACK yet. Since... 1 month time without comp... some how, some what use to it. So, may not be online so often. DAILY ROUTINE LIFE WITHOUT COMP!!!!