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i'm turning 21 soon. but it feels like i have been through half of my life. Somehow, it maybe true. If i died on 42, i really live half my life already! haha. So true that it is unbelievable. But anyway, life is like a roller-coaster ride. I wonder... last night, i was unable to sleep. my memory started to play.
Someone said, think about your childhood memory. happy one. I tried... and i feel very disappointed. It was only a 5 minutes "movie clip". Maybe less. what i am most disappointed about is that my childhood memory with my parents don't even worth 1 minute. How sarcastic can that be?
But the truth is... there are people out there that have worse experience than me...
It was today, that i feel my life is a dream. So dreamy that i don't even know if i am awake or i am asleep. Wondering... when i was taking my mock exam, it feels like a dream that i told myself to wake up. So funny yet scary... Even death came to my mind that i m about to kill myself. LOL! What a great dream. Still, it's real. I am sure that it is real. I am not in a dream. If i ever attempt to kill myself, i won't wake up. I will ended up DEAD! It's not a dream. It real!!!