Treasured Memories

This post was thought through the whole night. Yesterday night... many things came into my mind, and i finally came to decide that these must be written down. Humans' life are short, and i do not know what will happen to me tomorrow. What if i came to a stage where i lost my memories... beautiful moments and those that are precious in heart will be gone with the wind. Mortality was human body, immortality was humans' soul and so do memories. i do hope can bring immortality to this memory.
It was December, 2006... This is when we finally get to start. I came to realise, she might be the one i am looking for... She might be nothing to this world, but to me, she will be my world.
16th December, 2006.
This particular night, i do recall the night to be a full moon. Because that night, i was looking out at the window, hoping that she will give me an answer. A question given long asked in November. It sure does test my patience. But no thoughts of giving up had came into my mind. My phone rang. I came by to see a message received showing on the screen. It was from her. I don't really remember the content but it does sounds like telling me she has the answer to my question. I gave her a call to ask again. This is how everything started.
30th December, 2006.
First date with her. Laugh out Loud. i simply can't forget this day. It is her birthday. We meet up in school and get down to city center for some... dating. That day, was raining. Haha. Raining. So we had a movie and go for some shopping... I do feel a bit odd. She wasn't like other girls, when it comes to shopping, they go mad... lols... i don't mean to offend anyone. But, ain't shopping a big hobby for girls? She was like so obedient. Sad thing is, time flies. after a movie and some little walk in the mall, she had to get home. So... need to get her home or she'll get screwed. Of course, i don't want her parents to blow their top on her... that would be painful to her, and painful to me too...
After this day, she had to go for national service... ("darn those government. Ain't national service supposed to be more focus on male citizen? What type of governing is this? duh~"
) Anyway, we just can get to chat on the phone on weekends... and worst... i can't meet up with her... (Wonder why God set such big challenges for us? Keeping us apart... But at least, heart is still connected. That is what i feel important.) Until Chinese New Year came, i finally get to meet her again. YOO~~~WOOHH~~ excited. Feel like ages. Hmm~ i do feel so... Anyway, that was a nice reunion... Sad... only once we meet in chinese new year... she was having a week holiday!
Stop here a moment...
Don't you feel bad? Sad eh. This is a bad thing. Or is it not? I do feel bad... cause, i don't really make a good boyfriend. I don't really understand her. Worse... i don't make much initiative on asking her out. But i do treasured her. I wanted her to stay with me....
Let's get back...
So... after a week, she went back for more national service. Luckily, only 3 months required. So by March something, she is back. ^^ happy as alway... for i knew she is safe and sound. After her return, i give her calls more often. But despite the bills, more is to smsing... at least, can reduce my spending... i m still a student... i can't afford to pay much. Hm... lets not talk about money matter... I do feel her smile worth more than any money value.
By April, my course commence... Time is getting more and more packed up for me. That reduce our time to meet up. Is it my problem? Sure it must be my problem. I didn't manage well... But you know, she hardly complains. That is what amazed me. I really do treasured her because she never do complain much. Where can i find another girl that is as great as her?
Sad things happen again... Bad news came to my ears... She is going to West Malaysia to further her study... Our relationship is bounded by another distance challenge again. God gives us lots of challenges... and i do trust that i will find the right one through time, and i do trust her to be the one.
It has been more than one year now. We are still in a relationship. And it is not a simple task to maintain long distance relationship. But we make it. She is coming home for her holiday soon. I sure am pleased by this news. However, there is pressure. I do not know the exact thing that is causing me this pressure... i know, my finals is approaching me. And i do hope to make my exams pass with flying colours. I want to end my course fast! Because i make her a promise. I need time. Time to fulfill my dream and my target. And she also promised to wait. I really am touched and i really do... When i build my future, i am including her too. But i know, time is precious... very~ especially to girls... am i too selfish to let her wait??? Or should i set her free? promise is a bond that ties you. And if i fail to reach my goal fast, i wasted her time. I wanted all the best for her. And if i fail to do so, it sure will pains me into my spine. I really do want all the best for her. And that is all i hoped to do...
Man... i gotta stop here.

Blur Blur Style

Blurred... i woke up. My dreams in the morning caught me. Why does human dream? Where does this dream thing come from? Is it something that will happen? or is it just some crap? Blurred.
I never wonder why one become blur in their day to day routine life. As this must be caused by something or someone with certain reasons. No one is born to be blurred. Maybe... laugh out loud... Unless that particular person is a handicap... duh~ i focus on normal people. I mean normal human ain't born blurred. So... this question continues...
Is it just me or is it that something is really getting into my head? Man, my head... it is still me anyway... Blurred.
Lately life has been normal like usual. However, there seems to be a minor increase in stress and pressure. This must be caused by what i intended to obtain in my exam. Coming soon... So soon... Yet, i never done much revision. But i am not satisfied with the "me" now. I want to be better. How come human is never satisfied with what they have? This ... cannot be a fact though... some still reserves the rights to be easily fulfilled with what they have now. Of course that does not refers to me... i ain't such a person. Or am i??? Blurred.
So called a blur life... supposed many people lead such life... Never really know what they actually wants. But still, get on with their life just like that... Follow blindly. But i do know, one without dreams and objectives in life really do lead a boring life... and will feel that life is meaningless. Blurred...
Blurred... But never let blurred dull your senses... Do remember who you are... and move ahead. Get yourself a dream... a target to acheive. That will make life interesting. But do not neglect what u feel important. Once you lost it, you may not be able to find it back.
Head is getting dizzy... Feeling giddy... perhaps should stop here and get myself some rest... there are more to do. So... so long...