Perception

Someone once told me that life is a gift. As time pass by, this phrase did not prove itself. Time is a very scary thing. Everyone is given 24 hours a day, but is it really 24 hours? Not quite the truth. Time to sleep, time spent day dreaming, time is wasted. No one is actually able to full utilize the 24 hours given.

Besides, worst thing always happen at the worse timing. When things do not go your way, more things will follow. Therefore, leaving you with nothing left. This is a natural phenomenon that no human can ever deny. However, acceptance is the key. When things do not go as you wish, you may just choose to accept the direction. Well, since no choice is given, you cannot do anything about it. Why not just accept it with open heart?

As people age, they tend to think more, worry more. People are getting more and more experience as time flies by. They are given the knowledge of survival as well as the wisdom to differ right and wrong. Talking about right and wrong, this again is a topic that is arguable. Perception is the word to describe everything about right and wrong of this world. What is right? What is wrong? Does one plus one definitely equal to two? The answer is NO! Facts are what people believe it to be real and are somehow proven to be real. Prove? What is proof when you force yourself not to believe it to be real? Let’s discuss about the Robin Hood case. In old England, there is a thief, named Robin Hood, he steals from the rich to help the poor. Is this right or wrong? In the face of law, he may be wrong. In the face of Justice, he is wrong as well? Perception.

Life is a gift, gift that you should treasure. Yes! Indeed. Life is a gift, a gift that can be compared to a ticket to experience the delicious gourmet of the great cook. I suppose you can guess who does the great cook I refers to. Spices of life are the things that makes people age. Not time. The more you experience, the older you become. Some may be young but the taste of life is so clear that they taste it already!

Fairness is a topic that can simply be arguable. Some people claims that fairness does not exist in this world. Some people believe it does. Personally, I believe in the natural law of Equivalent Trade. You give what you take. There is no free meal in the world. Some people may be “lucky”, they spend little time to achieve what they wanted. Some may need to work hard, spend more time on it. But do they know that the challenges and set backs they receive during the course to accomplish their aim is actually a very valuable experience to them? This is something those “lucky” one do not experience. When things do not go their way, they just trip and fall. They may just stop and cry there while you, yes, YOU! Who taste defeat and pain of falling, stands up directly, and get on with the challenges ahead. Is not this something u gain that they do not gain in the course of achieving your target? FAILURE is a great teacher. Success is bad lecturer. Same tricks do not work twice now.

Conclusion… life SUCKs!!! No matter how it goes, how it ends, how it begins, it is just some extra stuff. When something exist, something need to feel the happiness, as well as sadness. This is the balance of nature. Everything comes. When non existence, there is no such things as worry, as well as happiness. SO? LIFE INDEED SUCKS!

Tormented Soul of the Archer

As a sagitarius, i enjoy freedom. Perhaps i should put it this way. Freedom to do anything. But of course, the most important thing is the freedom of soul.
Currently, there is a problem... caged within as i am... what hurt most is the pain of caged with hatred towards everything that's caged within with. The pain... is... incomparable. Of such that makes people insane. I can sense that my personality is at it verge of breaking down. Keeping him sane and alive, is a trouble. Indeed, i am also suffering from his negative thoughts and scream of pain every day. Tears had ran dry together with unheard grudge of life. Living with such grudge will bring insanity and impurity of the soul. He will definitely be haunted for life with the grudge he hold inside. It pitiful to see... yes... it is really sad to see... When sadness turns to depression, when hope no longer exist, where life is just a misery... Things will turn bad...
I dearly hope that he will be better soon... Rest assume, tiredness had already made my power weak to keep the dark side of me caged... anger and rage are at the verge of exploding. It will not be an easy way to keep it down at times of weakness.
Hopefully, things will turn well. Yes... HOPE.
Zechs is tired...
CLK is insane...
And that leave the rest to keep this body alive...
Good luck!

2011 ... is 2012 for real?

YES~ 2011 is finally here. Just can't wait for 2012 to come. But who cares... it might be just rumors and craps that has no supporting facts and calculations. But personally, i hope that it is real. LOL!!! Satanic as i am, i fear my own existence even more everyday. Every time i saw a building, i will think, jumping down from this height, what will happen. I do feel that i am almost there in, nearly there to visiting hell. Hahaha~ Satan is coming for me. Hades is coming for me.
Anyway, fear of death is there. It is not easy to commit suicide. There is a large need of COURAGE. Don't think dying is easy. Everytime thinking about methods of suicide, there is a fear of PAIN~ inflicting pain to people around you... and for what??? Consequences of your Death. Please... Death is just running away from problems. But what is it all about life that makes people keep hanging there, suffering to survive? I don't get it... Earning more money to spend? In the end, everyone dies. Even the richest man dies in time to come. Human are just pathetic creations, created merely for entertainment of the creator. It is very painful to know this truth. People say, human exist for a purpose. Helping the poor? Curing the sick? Why don't just kill them? Simple and easiest way to relief their pain and suffering. Show me the meaning of LIFE!

Random

i'm turning 21 soon. but it feels like i have been through half of my life. Somehow, it maybe true. If i died on 42, i really live half my life already! haha. So true that it is unbelievable. But anyway, life is like a roller-coaster ride. I wonder... last night, i was unable to sleep. my memory started to play.
Someone said, think about your childhood memory. happy one. I tried... and i feel very disappointed. It was only a 5 minutes "movie clip". Maybe less. what i am most disappointed about is that my childhood memory with my parents don't even worth 1 minute. How sarcastic can that be?
But the truth is... there are people out there that have worse experience than me...
It was today, that i feel my life is a dream. So dreamy that i don't even know if i am awake or i am asleep. Wondering... when i was taking my mock exam, it feels like a dream that i told myself to wake up. So funny yet scary... Even death came to my mind that i m about to kill myself. LOL! What a great dream. Still, it's real. I am sure that it is real. I am not in a dream. If i ever attempt to kill myself, i won't wake up. I will ended up DEAD! It's not a dream. It real!!!

Life as A Student

Suddenly this topic came to my mind...

Life as a student. Ah~ My life as a student is coming to an end. Life goes on. I suppose this is what every graduates or graduates-to-be are thinking about. Finally, leaving school and going to the society. Excited as i am... At the same time... worried. Wonder if i am capable of handling what is going to come into my life sooner or later. But, that doesn't really matter yet. The need to guarantee a PASS is the priority now.
I read about the articles. The syllabus are going to change in June 2011. Basically, this is the worst news for a student. I~ personally, feel that... D***! Why so fast? I can't complete until June 2011 at least! sigh* What can i do about it???
While all these stupid thoughts came to my mind...
I think it over. This time, with calmness and unambiguity. Finally, realized that, every human will be a student for the rest of their lives! This is the actual FACT! This thing that troubles me is insignificant. It is totally meaningless. Because, no one will graduate eventually as a STUDENT! Life is about learning. No one can stop learning until they die. Laugh Out Loud! Unless, they choose not to accept... However, even not accepting is a knowledge of how and why not to accept. You still learn something! Sarcastic~ Life is just SARCASTIC!
Learning... perhaps spending the whole life understanding the true meaning of life is better than everything. Spend some time sit quietly and meditate. Listen to the sound of life. Perhaps one day, i can communicate with nature and understand the meaning of LIFE better...

~When vision comes from the heart~

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最近很多人都说烦~ 那就来一首 “最近比较烦” ！哈哈！听了就别再怨烦了。每个人都有他的烦恼。

Special Edition

I had been posting in English all these while... and i thought... Hey, why not try to post something in Chinese? LOL?

~人生~
是我这次想谈的话题。从出生，成长，死亡。过程各有不同。就是因为这个不同，让人们觉得不公平。很奇怪的是，人类们只比较自己缺少的那部分，从来都不比较自己拥有的。更可笑的是，人类还找借口。。。“满足是成功的阻碍。” 但是又创造了 “知足常乐”。那又有多少人真正了解 “知足常乐” 这四个字呢？
我看见每个人的心都有个黑点。或许，这黑点就是所谓的 “不满”。只要是人类，都有着这个缺点。这也是所有罪的祸根。人说，“我知道什么是满足。我觉得现在的我很满足了。” 同时，又在背后唉声叹气，怨天尤人。一句 “不公平” 足以显示出人心的不满。。。
苦行，苦行。。。其实并不苦。真正的意义是和大自然融合为一。接受一切。不去作比较。在不存在和存在之间，找到个平衡点。。。或许这智慧很高深吧。要得到这种智慧需要大量的静修和静思, 更需要恒心去面对所有发生的事，快乐的，不快乐的。。。 都要一一面对。面对多了，自然就体会到了。人类都因为害怕失败，而不去面对。这样是无法成长的哦。很多人还不愿接受自己的错，遇到困难就逃避，遇到不顺就怨天怨人。。。
照照镜子吧~ 所有发生的事都是自己一手创造的。天灾躲不过，人祸可避免。就算发生了，也可以积极面对啊！
比较比较。人比人气死人。别跟别人比，跟自己比。每天照照镜子，跟镜子说，“我要比你还要好一点！” 只要每天都比昨天的自己好一点，成长就是无限的。无限是不是无敌？或许吧。。。在不和别人比较的时候，快乐自然就出现了。自己找找看吧。加油！

~Life~
will be the topic i would like to discuss. From being born, growing up, until death. Everyone have their difference. Because of this Difference, human feels unjust. Funny thing is, human only compare what they don't have with what others have and never compare what they have with what others don't have. They even find excuses, saying "Satisfaction is the enemy of success." However, human also have a saying, "Contentment is the key to happiness". How many people actually live by this saying???
I saw a dark spot in everyone's heart. Perhaps, this is the GREED of human. Every human are haunted by this Sin. Some may deny and say, "i know what is contentment and i am satisfied with what i have now." On the other hand, he or she feels depress and disappointed, blaming God, blaming others for what happen to them. A single saying, "Not Fair" is enough to show their greed.
Ascetic. Some people practise this to understand life better. Ascetic is not actually that bad. It is just to merge with Nature and understand life better. Not to compare, accept changes and adjust yourselves to meet the changes. Look for a balance in between existence and non-existence. This require lots of meditation to understand. Besides, facing problems, sadness, happiness... treat all as one. Face them with courage. This is how you grow. Fear to face failure makes people weak. Whenever they meet problems, they choose to run instead of facing it. That will not make you grow.

Look into the mirror. Tell yourselves. You can't control what is happening around you but you can control what is happening to you!

Comparing is a bad practice. Business wise, comparing can be done. When it comes to human. Comparing with others is the cause of hatred. Don't compare with others. Compare with yourselves. Have you ever think that if one day, your competition ran off, or your competition stop growing, you also stop growing? There is a limit to growth here. Why not make it INFINITE? Compare with yourself. Look into the mirror daily and said, "Hey there, i wanna be better than you!" If you can be better than yourself yesterday, you are a better man. None the less, you did it daily! That makes you a totally better person everyday!!! When growth is INFINITE, isn't that just INVINCIBLE? Look this up yourself. Good Luck!