Man! What on earth... Exam is always so annoying to most of the students. Of course, that number of students includes me. I think, most of the students will think exams sucks. Laugh out Loud. LoL... "agreeable" eh? hehe...
Lately, school is having exams again. Of course, that isn't the biggest(largest or what u called it... pressure?)exam that i fear. because, some really great heart pumping exams is approaching so xxxx soon. This is the exam that call for my future, my speed of completing my goal that i set for my life. Hmm... if i haven't set this goal... i believe i m still a know nothing, doing nothing and having no future... lols... sounds like a weakling and a good for nothing.
Anyway, that is not what happen now... it is no longer the same... i had my dream set... and that is of course, pushing myself further. Human do need some stress and pressure as a catalyst for improvement. LoLs... at least that is what i think. A simple push from a foe can make one's feel challenged. And of course, that means making one's more hardworking. LoL... i don't think that will be me... but you know, i don't really feel threatened when someone challenged me... of course, when i do feel threatened, i will fight for what i want. Sounds really stuborn? wakakakaka! I am stuborn. Can't blame me for that. I am born this way.
Lets bring it back to my coming exam... CAT exam... my final stage to complete this first little step to my goal. Life is boring without waves of challenges and ups and downs. hahaha... Let me continue with my study... and another small step to my objective. I do hope that i don't have to stop while i am on my way to my dream... "kill all on your path!" lols... That is what i was told... i don't know from who i heard that from but that is a phrase i remember. For exams... everyone, hardwork will payoff! All my friends, don't feel stress on just little little exams... it is just a small test, a small stone on the road of life. Let not make a small fall end the fire that burns within you!
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Sickness & Health
Today, 12th March... i visited my grandpa in hospital. Wow~ located quite far away from town, took a 40 minutes drive there. It is a long period i stay there with my grandpa. 6 hours... During the period of "nothing to do ness", many things came into my brain. Every human being will need to pass through this step in life... but is there any exception? i really feel painful seeing them all... we live to die? This is a really pessimistic saying. But it is real. It is true. Can't deny that this thing is a fact. So... is there a way or is there any possibility that someone can run away from this chain?
Life is like a chain... Everyone will step into this chain. We grow up... go to school... work... grow old... fall sick... died... i don't mean running away from death, cause death itself will be there to take you to another journey... somewhere... That is what i think of course... it might not be true...
Anyway, i started thinking... it started with my daddy... a father and son relationship. That time, i finally realize that this is very very important! You will have nothing to say, you will have nothing to do... and when you are there to take care of him, you 2 hardly communicate... talk... in other words...
lets bring it to the next level... the grandson and grandpa relationship... LoL... is this a question? it is the problem on me... LoL... i really do feel sad that i hardly communicate with my grandpa. I tried my best to talk with him... But it is just hard. There is a case that came into my mind. If a grandson never visit his/her grandparents, they will not know each other... and of course, will feel very far away from them. Is this an act of unfilial or is it not? i don't really know... Maybe just that i think too much. But it is important to take care of health. Health is more important than anything on earth ever. A stroke may take away your moving capability. That will be a burden, not only to yourself, but also your love ones.
LoL... then again... another question came to me... If i m now in the age of 30~40.. and my dad fall sick and will be the one lying there... what will i do? questions questions questions~ Then, i give myself an answer. I, of course will stay there, like now, take care of him. But i don't want it to be like this, where communication is a problem. I really don't hope so. I really wish we can talk... we can laugh. Even in the hospital, heart must stay happy. At least this can reduce feeling down, sad, and pressure.
Then again... questions... What if i m the one lying there now? LOL... this question takes me out for a breathe of fresh air... LoL.. i m old and out. And my children... heck? my children? wow... that is so far away... LoL... but this will also happen one day... when i m old... then i start thinking... is there any way of running away from falling sick and staying away from hospital before i m going to another journey? LoL... escaping the truth... hehe... i really am a coward, hiding from the fact of growing old. Death... anyway, i cleared my mind afterwards... get back inside... and of course, stop thinking so much... and resume my responsibility of keeping him comfy and safe. ya right... safe...
Life and Death... it is just a matter of difference of time... a game of time. Of course, you will never be the winner!
Life is like a chain... Everyone will step into this chain. We grow up... go to school... work... grow old... fall sick... died... i don't mean running away from death, cause death itself will be there to take you to another journey... somewhere... That is what i think of course... it might not be true...
Anyway, i started thinking... it started with my daddy... a father and son relationship. That time, i finally realize that this is very very important! You will have nothing to say, you will have nothing to do... and when you are there to take care of him, you 2 hardly communicate... talk... in other words...
lets bring it to the next level... the grandson and grandpa relationship... LoL... is this a question? it is the problem on me... LoL... i really do feel sad that i hardly communicate with my grandpa. I tried my best to talk with him... But it is just hard. There is a case that came into my mind. If a grandson never visit his/her grandparents, they will not know each other... and of course, will feel very far away from them. Is this an act of unfilial or is it not? i don't really know... Maybe just that i think too much. But it is important to take care of health. Health is more important than anything on earth ever. A stroke may take away your moving capability. That will be a burden, not only to yourself, but also your love ones.
LoL... then again... another question came to me... If i m now in the age of 30~40.. and my dad fall sick and will be the one lying there... what will i do? questions questions questions~ Then, i give myself an answer. I, of course will stay there, like now, take care of him. But i don't want it to be like this, where communication is a problem. I really don't hope so. I really wish we can talk... we can laugh. Even in the hospital, heart must stay happy. At least this can reduce feeling down, sad, and pressure.
Then again... questions... What if i m the one lying there now? LOL... this question takes me out for a breathe of fresh air... LoL.. i m old and out. And my children... heck? my children? wow... that is so far away... LoL... but this will also happen one day... when i m old... then i start thinking... is there any way of running away from falling sick and staying away from hospital before i m going to another journey? LoL... escaping the truth... hehe... i really am a coward, hiding from the fact of growing old. Death... anyway, i cleared my mind afterwards... get back inside... and of course, stop thinking so much... and resume my responsibility of keeping him comfy and safe. ya right... safe...
Life and Death... it is just a matter of difference of time... a game of time. Of course, you will never be the winner!
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Blessing or Curse?
Politics... Politics... Politics... These are the things happening in Malaysia these few days. Only when election is near, politicians come out to claim that what they do and what they done in the past and what sweet promises they gives to the people of the country. Sad to hear, the government is not stable. Anyway, it is better not to get personal. I just want a fair and free life. If the government treats me unjust, for sure i will show my stance to get what i deserve.
Blessing or curse? What is this to do with the politics?
It is just simple to say, i rather not put it in politic field. haha~ anyway, i rather put it in a form that consist study. A good teacher will be able to make a good student, better. Where as, when a teacher is not reliable and always will make mistakes while teaching, he will cause a good student to become a normal student. Downgrading... how sad... When student don't respect you, how can you be a good teacher? Besides, this may also cause the students to dislike that particular subject. When you don't like something, will you work hard or even pay attention to that particular subject? No, right? I believe every student will say so.
Now, on the other hand, i also intend to put it on neighbour. Do you know there are pros and ons of having a neighbour? Laugh out Loud? Sure many will be laughing as this is a question that came out in primary school essay question. Even a young child can answer this. Good neighbours of course, will bea blessing. Bad neighbour, boo~ of course is curse. Really lame ya?
How about putting it on having a sleeping Prime Minister? oh no~ not about politics again... skip it... sleeping PM got many blessing you know? of course is for the ministers and others related. But to the people ... hmm... i have nothing to say... hehe...
Broken Lie
Sleepy shepherd gives a promise
to guard the sheep will all his might
Sleepy shepherd guarding sheep
a wolf came out with wool alike
the boy overlook with blurry eyes
never know got wolf in disguise
until the day he need trade for rice
counting sheep he counted twice
oh my god my sheep is gone
where did all my "people" go
everyone's blood is boiling
going to check what he is doing
when they ask him he just said
no no no
please listen to me
i did my best
please don't blame me
everyone are getting upset
disappointed by what he had said
no no no
you made a promise
get down and off we had enough
we don't want you to look after our stuff!
I just made it up for fun. Don't put it on anything ok? Ok... i think it is time for my break... Some rest and some relaxation... haha... so... stop here.
Blessing or curse? What is this to do with the politics?
It is just simple to say, i rather not put it in politic field. haha~ anyway, i rather put it in a form that consist study. A good teacher will be able to make a good student, better. Where as, when a teacher is not reliable and always will make mistakes while teaching, he will cause a good student to become a normal student. Downgrading... how sad... When student don't respect you, how can you be a good teacher? Besides, this may also cause the students to dislike that particular subject. When you don't like something, will you work hard or even pay attention to that particular subject? No, right? I believe every student will say so.
Now, on the other hand, i also intend to put it on neighbour. Do you know there are pros and ons of having a neighbour? Laugh out Loud? Sure many will be laughing as this is a question that came out in primary school essay question. Even a young child can answer this. Good neighbours of course, will bea blessing. Bad neighbour, boo~ of course is curse. Really lame ya?
How about putting it on having a sleeping Prime Minister? oh no~ not about politics again... skip it... sleeping PM got many blessing you know? of course is for the ministers and others related. But to the people ... hmm... i have nothing to say... hehe...
Broken Lie
Sleepy shepherd gives a promise
to guard the sheep will all his might
Sleepy shepherd guarding sheep
a wolf came out with wool alike
the boy overlook with blurry eyes
never know got wolf in disguise
until the day he need trade for rice
counting sheep he counted twice
oh my god my sheep is gone
where did all my "people" go
everyone's blood is boiling
going to check what he is doing
when they ask him he just said
no no no
please listen to me
i did my best
please don't blame me
everyone are getting upset
disappointed by what he had said
no no no
you made a promise
get down and off we had enough
we don't want you to look after our stuff!
I just made it up for fun. Don't put it on anything ok? Ok... i think it is time for my break... Some rest and some relaxation... haha... so... stop here.
Friday, February 29, 2008
A friend indeed!
Today, i had to walk my brother to school. He is already 13 and still need someone to walk him to school... Anyway, this is not the important part. What nice is i get the chance to meet my very best pal, PBL!
Haha... it has been quite some time already since the last time i see him. He is still the same. tanned skin, thin and tall. Many things happen between us. And that is how i get to know he will be the best friend ever.
Still remember, last time, years ago when we was form 5. That time we was having exam and my family goes on vacation. I was left alone at home. Unluckily, i fall sick. He came to my house, had a "vacation" at my house. I really do appreciate that time. Not only him, there are still some of them. These few people, are really really important as they had accompany me throughout my most hard and painful time. I still remember, it was 12th of May. I break up with my first-ex. And i was all alone. All alone. But they showed up. Cheering me up all the way. I really do appreciate the time they were around. It will be a precious moments, saved forever in soul.
There is another one, who is always so straight in her wordings. But that is how she is, thats is how she makes me let her into my bestest best friend list! JPC!
It is a coincidence, a surprise when i saw her, coming for tuition, additional maths taught by my cousin. Before i know her, i think she is a proud girl, leading a "strict" life. Until that time, i finally get to know, she is not what i think she was. She is friendly. Only her words are sharp and painful. (please don't be angry ya) But this is what nice about her. I do consult her for a better self. I actually treat her as my big sister! Although she didn't act like one, but i respect her as one.She did make me changed to be a better person! And i do appreciate her help. She is now taking on the course to becoming a teacher in the future. And hardly have the time to reply. Just hope that she can still remember me this little brother.
Timothy~ How can i forget you? TCYS!
This big guy, i just get the chance to see him on this Chinese New Year. He is more slim now. However, he is still the same, handsome and so charming. Having a big size, he still has a caring heart. We really had a great time together for our last 2 years time of secondary school life. We played, we got caught, scolded by teacher... Hahaha... Come to think of it, it is kinda funny now. But that was a great time we have there. Although we cannot be brothers in blood, but i really am happy to have such a friend like you. May the friendship last. We still have an unfinished business with Keegan Luke and Mr.Andrew LKC!
Here are the few of them, who had come into the top my bestest best friends list.If i am to continue writing about my bestest best friend list and about them, i think i will not be able to finish. My friends, i really do hope our friendship will last. Take care!
Haha... it has been quite some time already since the last time i see him. He is still the same. tanned skin, thin and tall. Many things happen between us. And that is how i get to know he will be the best friend ever.
Still remember, last time, years ago when we was form 5. That time we was having exam and my family goes on vacation. I was left alone at home. Unluckily, i fall sick. He came to my house, had a "vacation" at my house. I really do appreciate that time. Not only him, there are still some of them. These few people, are really really important as they had accompany me throughout my most hard and painful time. I still remember, it was 12th of May. I break up with my first-ex. And i was all alone. All alone. But they showed up. Cheering me up all the way. I really do appreciate the time they were around. It will be a precious moments, saved forever in soul.
There is another one, who is always so straight in her wordings. But that is how she is, thats is how she makes me let her into my bestest best friend list! JPC!
It is a coincidence, a surprise when i saw her, coming for tuition, additional maths taught by my cousin. Before i know her, i think she is a proud girl, leading a "strict" life. Until that time, i finally get to know, she is not what i think she was. She is friendly. Only her words are sharp and painful. (please don't be angry ya) But this is what nice about her. I do consult her for a better self. I actually treat her as my big sister! Although she didn't act like one, but i respect her as one.She did make me changed to be a better person! And i do appreciate her help. She is now taking on the course to becoming a teacher in the future. And hardly have the time to reply. Just hope that she can still remember me this little brother.
Timothy~ How can i forget you? TCYS!
This big guy, i just get the chance to see him on this Chinese New Year. He is more slim now. However, he is still the same, handsome and so charming. Having a big size, he still has a caring heart. We really had a great time together for our last 2 years time of secondary school life. We played, we got caught, scolded by teacher... Hahaha... Come to think of it, it is kinda funny now. But that was a great time we have there. Although we cannot be brothers in blood, but i really am happy to have such a friend like you. May the friendship last. We still have an unfinished business with Keegan Luke and Mr.Andrew LKC!
Here are the few of them, who had come into the top my bestest best friends list.If i am to continue writing about my bestest best friend list and about them, i think i will not be able to finish. My friends, i really do hope our friendship will last. Take care!
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Defend Of The Ancient
I don't know what i can say about this... This game was introduced to me by a friend of mine, Daniel. This game really get into me for some time... Getting so into it. We go to CC (Cyber Cafe) for a match once in a while. Lately, i found it really stupid. It is always the same no matter how much you train and how you play. The one with a better knowledge of the game will always takes the upper hand. And... It don't really mean anything.
Ok... About DOTA. This is a game of battle among 2 teams. The Sentinels and The scourge. I did found books about these nightelves and Undead from Warcraft. It is nice to see the story of these thing. The writer really got a nice imagination.
This is a 3D game, where 2 parties fight each other out. Using skills, with health points and mana points, each hero has their own different ability. It is divided into 3 main type, strength, agility and intelligent.
I myself prefer agility hero cause, they move faster and swifter. Laugh out Loud. Anyway, i am kinda fed up with it. Using Agi hero all the time. So... after some time, i starts using Str hero... str is not bad oh... at least they are strong and have long health points(HP). Damage is also partially high! However, i also starts to get fed up of str hero. So... i try on Int hero! Wow... Int hero is slow, low damage, low HP. LoL. But one thing about Int hero, they are good! those clever player, can make good use of the skills.
Anyway, i have no idea why this game is so nice... it is kinda violent... in a way...LoL. This was quoted from a friend of mine who say DOTA is violent! Anyway, it is a nice game. Whenever you feel stress or unhappy, get into the game, start killing! It might be able to cure it! What a miracle... ya right!
Anyway, it is not recommended to play it all the time. There is news about Dota that is bad. Really bad. Especially to those with relationship. Some will get so obsess about the game as they can't take losing or just enjoy the feeling of killing and winning the battle all the time. They starts to play alot. And that means forget about their love ones. It is sad...
Lets conclude. This Dota thing, is nice just to be an entertainment. Play it once in a while to relief stress and strain.
Ok... About DOTA. This is a game of battle among 2 teams. The Sentinels and The scourge. I did found books about these nightelves and Undead from Warcraft. It is nice to see the story of these thing. The writer really got a nice imagination.
This is a 3D game, where 2 parties fight each other out. Using skills, with health points and mana points, each hero has their own different ability. It is divided into 3 main type, strength, agility and intelligent.
I myself prefer agility hero cause, they move faster and swifter. Laugh out Loud. Anyway, i am kinda fed up with it. Using Agi hero all the time. So... after some time, i starts using Str hero... str is not bad oh... at least they are strong and have long health points(HP). Damage is also partially high! However, i also starts to get fed up of str hero. So... i try on Int hero! Wow... Int hero is slow, low damage, low HP. LoL. But one thing about Int hero, they are good! those clever player, can make good use of the skills.
Anyway, i have no idea why this game is so nice... it is kinda violent... in a way...LoL. This was quoted from a friend of mine who say DOTA is violent! Anyway, it is a nice game. Whenever you feel stress or unhappy, get into the game, start killing! It might be able to cure it! What a miracle... ya right!
Anyway, it is not recommended to play it all the time. There is news about Dota that is bad. Really bad. Especially to those with relationship. Some will get so obsess about the game as they can't take losing or just enjoy the feeling of killing and winning the battle all the time. They starts to play alot. And that means forget about their love ones. It is sad...
Lets conclude. This Dota thing, is nice just to be an entertainment. Play it once in a while to relief stress and strain.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Maplestory Friends!
Maplestory, this is a game i started to play since Dec 2006. Since this game is an online game, i get to know some online friends from all over Malaysia... and also Singapore!
How i started this game was because of my cousin. they introduced me into playing this game. Laugh out Loud. This game is also kinda entertaining when you feel down cause, u can just get in there, see those cute cute graphics and facial expression. And also find some really really nice friends oh!
Let me begin with HoliePenguin! Penguin! Pigguin! CJW!~ ^^
PENGUIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is how i greet her whenever i saw her online. Or the other way round, HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whenever she saw me online. LoL... Sounds stupid right? but this is what games are meant to be. Can let you be stupid... And, she is also stupid. Wahahaha! This very person here, is the best friend ever oh... My first Maple Friend since my first character.
Clement! The PRO! tnemelc01!!!
Clement~ My first ever maple friend from SG (Singapore). He is a nice guy... Sometimes really pessimistic, but this is how he is. I think is because he is still single until now. Have no confidence about himself. I can only conclude my comment about this guy with one word, A VERY VERY nice pal to have! CLEMENT, i pass the "ball" to you, because i trust you. ^^
Rachel Jia Shuen( i know your name you don't know mine! wakakakaka)~ Serenity89!
Haha... this girl oh... My maple dar dar~ very pro de... of course not in maple(Don scold me ya XD). It is in her study... She is science student, tackling medicine! Wow... this is a course that is very hard(to me) to take on. Although i never meet her in real, and i also don't know her much, i think, she is a nice person. It is nice at least, when i feel down, i can seek for her help. LOL... Although she didn't help much, just... oh ah oh at whatever i said. HaHa... Anyway, it is nice to know this crazy girl.
Aiele~ JessMinMin!!!
This one... Another from SG. To be frank, I really do admire her style and her personality. Haha... Being a girl, and still so funky and play so much... Lost count of how many ex she had... Anyway, she is a great friend i have through maple. I really like being around and talk and chat with her as she always can make of a way to let people around her being happy all the time. Never ever see her sad. Wow... just super cheerful! ^^ Aiele, i really am grateful to know you oh. No thxs required ^^
My Partner DK~ KaeiShinz! Kelvin!
Kelvin, he is funny. Always being lame and makes people laugh. He is sometimes kinda emo as he gets upset for little things. Kelvin, it is nice knowing you and nice having your help. You really are a nice partner. One day we can reach 4th Job(maple thing) together!
There is plenty more friends i know in maple, of course, here are the most and most most important of all! I really am happy to know all of you. Hope can meet you guys in real, and may the friendship lives forever.
How i started this game was because of my cousin. they introduced me into playing this game. Laugh out Loud. This game is also kinda entertaining when you feel down cause, u can just get in there, see those cute cute graphics and facial expression. And also find some really really nice friends oh!
Let me begin with HoliePenguin! Penguin! Pigguin! CJW!~ ^^
PENGUIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is how i greet her whenever i saw her online. Or the other way round, HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whenever she saw me online. LoL... Sounds stupid right? but this is what games are meant to be. Can let you be stupid... And, she is also stupid. Wahahaha! This very person here, is the best friend ever oh... My first Maple Friend since my first character.
Clement! The PRO! tnemelc01!!!
Clement~ My first ever maple friend from SG (Singapore). He is a nice guy... Sometimes really pessimistic, but this is how he is. I think is because he is still single until now. Have no confidence about himself. I can only conclude my comment about this guy with one word, A VERY VERY nice pal to have! CLEMENT, i pass the "ball" to you, because i trust you. ^^
Rachel Jia Shuen( i know your name you don't know mine! wakakakaka)~ Serenity89!
Haha... this girl oh... My maple dar dar~ very pro de... of course not in maple(Don scold me ya XD). It is in her study... She is science student, tackling medicine! Wow... this is a course that is very hard(to me) to take on. Although i never meet her in real, and i also don't know her much, i think, she is a nice person. It is nice at least, when i feel down, i can seek for her help. LOL... Although she didn't help much, just... oh ah oh at whatever i said. HaHa... Anyway, it is nice to know this crazy girl.
Aiele~ JessMinMin!!!
This one... Another from SG. To be frank, I really do admire her style and her personality. Haha... Being a girl, and still so funky and play so much... Lost count of how many ex she had... Anyway, she is a great friend i have through maple. I really like being around and talk and chat with her as she always can make of a way to let people around her being happy all the time. Never ever see her sad. Wow... just super cheerful! ^^ Aiele, i really am grateful to know you oh. No thxs required ^^
My Partner DK~ KaeiShinz! Kelvin!
Kelvin, he is funny. Always being lame and makes people laugh. He is sometimes kinda emo as he gets upset for little things. Kelvin, it is nice knowing you and nice having your help. You really are a nice partner. One day we can reach 4th Job(maple thing) together!
There is plenty more friends i know in maple, of course, here are the most and most most important of all! I really am happy to know all of you. Hope can meet you guys in real, and may the friendship lives forever.
Monday, February 25, 2008
Stress and pressure?
It is odd... i have been feeling stress and pressure lately... i wonder what is causing this. It is somehow very breathe taking... make me worn out so easily everyday. Anyway, i think i am supposed to be facing it with everything i got. Pressure is something everyone will face. It only differs how everyone treat it. If i can't take it, i am totally not ready to face the world...
Yes... lately, my luck is still with me... but it seems like, i don't like it. I feel like my heart is gone somewhere. It is not with me anymore. Feel more like a zombie. But, it is not like me to be giving up half way here. This is not a nice thing to do to say, "i give up!" or "God!~ this is so unfair to me!"
No! this is not what i do... This is for the weak that is trying to run away from problems.
Stress? i am attacking directly on you now. give me all that you got!
LoL... Is it odd that i start to talk to myself? After receiving news that i had passed my 2 papers on 18th february, this stress and pressure thing just came to me. It is so unbelievable. I know, most people will feel relief as they knew they had finally go through this heart-stopping part of life when you are waiting for your result.
Anyway, it is time to face this stress... maybe i need some rest... and then get back to the stop-point and fire off hitting my target! Gambateh Mr.Z. Go get your dream!
Yes... lately, my luck is still with me... but it seems like, i don't like it. I feel like my heart is gone somewhere. It is not with me anymore. Feel more like a zombie. But, it is not like me to be giving up half way here. This is not a nice thing to do to say, "i give up!" or "God!~ this is so unfair to me!"
No! this is not what i do... This is for the weak that is trying to run away from problems.
Stress? i am attacking directly on you now. give me all that you got!
LoL... Is it odd that i start to talk to myself? After receiving news that i had passed my 2 papers on 18th february, this stress and pressure thing just came to me. It is so unbelievable. I know, most people will feel relief as they knew they had finally go through this heart-stopping part of life when you are waiting for your result.
Anyway, it is time to face this stress... maybe i need some rest... and then get back to the stop-point and fire off hitting my target! Gambateh Mr.Z. Go get your dream!
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